Sometimes, you just have to follow....

Its has been quite tough in the past 2 weeks, life have not been that easy all year long, hmm, but, phew, thank goodness I am still here, still standing...

Last week, the Awakening for Jesus camp was held from the 4-7 of June, its a revival service, its a life changing and nation changing time for Malaysia. I will certainly go, that's a norm. But, due to exams, I have to stay put at home to study. Its so so not me, hmm, its so tough to do something like this. Its just not ME!!!!! Sometimes I do wonder and ask God, why in this period of time? Why you put me in STPM while you are about to pour down your revival in Malaysia? Why do I have to do all these, its so not me...

Its so pain and tough in my heart, especially during the four days revival conference, and after the conference. Its so pain and tough for me when I know others were calling and seeking God to pour down revival to my beloved Malaysia but I could do was just listen to their stories. So many things went through my mind, so many thoughts. Not only this, for the sake of stpm, I have come not so active in ministry, when there are so many things going on, so many doors God is opening for our ministry, all I could do was staying put and study. I don't like this kind of feelings, its not fun, certainly not!

Well, any how, I believe in the risen one, I believe that everything happens according to His plan. Maybe at this moment I couldn't understand, but I am willing to obey dear Lord, I am willing to listen and follow what You've ask me to do, I am willing to surrender my all to You. God told me two things in June,

1st of June-
While we're praying hard in the prayer meeting preparing for the camp, God ask me to look, and then I look to everyone who are praying so hard, crying to God for revival in Malaysia. Then a thought came in: I will pour down my revival to this generation..Thank God, His promise. I played guitar in that meeting, and one of the strings eventually broken, and I took the string and tell God, this is Your promise!!

6th of June-
It was an evangelistic night service, A Trip To Hell. Shared by Ps Philip Mantofa, it was an unforgettable night. The fear of hell and the fear for the lost who might get into hell is just too overwhelming. And during the altar call, I was standing in front of the ladies, due to the mass no. of incoming crowd responding to the altar call. There and then, one thought came into my mind, its from God, He says: Remember today, remember tonight, remember the pain....I will Father, I will remember...

Its a route that God wants me to go through and I believe He has His beautiful plan behind all these. I will follow, I will follow You...

Life is beautiful-Namesake
Chorus:
I have decided, to follow Jesus (x3)
No turning back, no turning back

Though none go with me, still I will follow (x3)
No turning back, no turning back

The cross before me, world behind me (x3)
No turning back, no turning back