the journey of life

11th of December 2008, it has all ended, the end. An ending to be celebrated of, or is it vice versa? Life in form 6, in secondary school has ended, quite reluctantly. A journey that has stretch me to my limit, broadened my vision, built me up holistically as a person. before the end i were crying for it to end, however by the time i reach it, i was so desperate that everything can continue as it is. From 15th of May 2007 to 11th of Dec 2008, this was the golden years of my life, a time duration where i felt most lively, happy and enjoyed.

Start from the beginning i know this would be real tough, all this while i knew it is gonna be a real test for me in this year, God hinted me of what lies ahead last December, strange feelings of big things happening ahead of me during last dec. i started being very stress from the beginning, my emotions were very unstable throughout the year, but thank God He hold me through. So many happenings in this year, revival meetings, youth church events, but all i could do was just stay at home, saying no to these was a real struggle for me.

My spiritual life at a point was at the lowest that i have ever been, very dry, thirst for God yet im not reading the bible nor during devotion at some time, almost died spiritually. And once again, really thanks for the mercy and grace of God, His compassion on me that He did not give up on me, really thank God for that..

And late in June till Dec, my strength were push to the limit when i have to take over the functioning printing company for a short peroid of time, it might be ok if i wouldn't have tos tudy for my STPM, but with stpm, i am put into a real test. Stress level build up to another threshold, i cried for times, asking God why do all these heppens, i wasn't sleeping very well at night, woke up a few times while sleeping, i do not know seriously i did i survive that..

And finally, everything ends, stpm has ended, now i can take a deep breath. When i look back now, all i can see is the grace of God, the mercy and strength that He has given me, is all Him..I wouldn't do all this if it is by my own strength, but with God, im willing...