Monday, July 19, 2010

Sentimentalist

Wow, it has been ages since I last posted in my blog! So many things that had happened in between my last post and now, so many to an extent where I could not write it all here.

For the months that had passed, I could sum them all up in 1 word that separates in to 3: Favor in my study, work and ministry. Yes I am 21 years old this year but yet there were many people think that I does things beyond what I suppose to do in my age, especially in this BIG 21 year old. Basically I have a few roles to play in my life: Son, Brother, Boy friend, Friend, Tuition teacher, Businessman, Biotech student, Worship leader, Cell leader cum driver, Sunday school teacher, Usher. Yes, I think thats all. I thank God for all the things that He had led me to, every single experiences is valuble to me.

But really at times I felt so tired, tired of needing to handle so many things at once. Burn out, and physically challenging as well. But what amazed me is how God had taught me through my family and people around me to deal with things better, to handle things better. God had shown me that His grace was suffucient for me, insteed, more than enough for me. And through my work, study and ministry I can truely see how He had chosen me to be His vassel of His favor!

Its hard for me to describe it in words, I'm not good in doing this. But trust me, its so overwhelming till an extent that I couldn't believe it was really happening! Thank God for all His mercy and grace!

Monday, April 12, 2010

从破碎到自由

我渴望更多得着你
干渴的心再次满意
我渴望更多经历你
除去软弱从新站立

今天我要遇见你
我的生命不再停留
诚实面对自己
接受释放与更新

从破碎到自由
经历医治和真平安
宝血所立的约
承担羞辱换来喜乐

从破碎到自由
从新连结在主爱里
极致的爱和恩典
领取祝福再前行


最近深深被这首诗歌吸引着,每一天早上还未作任何事前都会把它开来听。是的主啊,使你让我从破碎中的自由,使你是我诚实面对自己,接受释放与更新。

从大卫王的生命中,我真的看到上帝所喜悦的,不是死撑,不是假装,而是最诚实的自己。大卫王是上帝所称,合祂心意的人,为什么?没错,他曾犯奸淫,杀人,骄傲,但大卫王最难能可贵的是他对自己及对上帝的诚实,他知道也承认自己犯罪,他承认他亏欠了神。他没有在人的面前伪装,当先知拿单在众人面前指出他的罪时,他没有老羞成怒,没有任何的反抗。他大可命人把拿单给杀了,但他没这么做,这也是大卫王与扫罗王最大的分别,大卫王对自己对上帝的诚实换来了上帝对他的喜悦;而扫罗在攻击了敌人后没遵上帝的命令把所有牲畜杀了,还自己献祭,过后把自己所做的错推卸得一干二净,也换来了上帝对他的厌恶。

在这个重视包装的世代,有多少个人在卸下面具后,能接受最原来的自己?有多少人有勇气去承认自己的软弱,自己的不足?承认软弱,诚实面对,这过程可能会艰难,但破碎后有自由,难过后有平安。求神帮助我和你,成为一个诚实面对自己,别人与上帝,上帝所喜悦的器皿!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Money, Money, Money!

In a perfect world, money is not important, it is not an issue. It drives people crazy, some even make their whole life to live for it. I am a person, without much money, just blessings of God. Hmm, nice it way sound, but i am feeling the pressure of having empty pockets, empty wallet, but well, God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. Money money, Lord, when will the world stop talking about money? I bet it never will.