Wonderful Life

The Revelation in Taiwan

2011-09-05T07:35:00.000-07:00

22/08/11-29/08/11

Out of the country for the first time, I found myself in a foreign land that seems all so familiar. Every faces here are so alike and familiar, at a point I was questioning myself did I actually went oversea, anyhow it was a wonderful experience. Apart from the life, the food, and the people here, this post will focus on the focal point of the Taiwan Trip.

The first 6 days we spent attending conferences, yes, 2 conferences that I am attending.

Kingdom of God.

Becoming the real us.

The conferences had reveal what I perceive is what God has to say to this generation of people, to His people living in the very end of days: The Kingdom of God does not only lie in the future, but it is already here, and we the citizens of God carries the kingdom with us wherever we go.

Christians should be the head but not the tail, and our life style should be of a royal prince and princess, carrying the honor and glory of the kingdom of God for we were made according to the image of the God that had created the universe and the world we are living right now. Was listening to Ps Jaeson Ma message on the Kingdom Mandate, he mentioned that in Genesis God had told human, let them have dominion over all creation on earth and thus God himself cannot cannot turnover what He had said, thus he grant human the authority over all creation on earth and thus be responsible for every deeds that human made. Not that God cannot intervene and allow that to happen, it is because God cannot turn over what He had said, that is entrusting human to rule over the earth.

Thus as we live on the earth, we are the medium that God needs to propagate among the people. He requires us to work with Him in order to bring His kingdom down to the earth and thus God is searching for a person, a righteous man that earnestly seek Him and His will. We are no longer condemned by our sins and weaknesses when we accept Christ as He had died for us on the cross to restore our identity in Him. When we live like a prince, living a kingdom lifestyle that we are only becoming our real self.

Repent may be broken to "Re-pent". That is returning to the pinnacle, the highest point (JMA). Yes, it was to restore us back to what we had fallen short of, the us that is glorious, honored, holy, and majestic. Only when we realize who we are that we know what we are capable of doing. A slave will never rule the world, but a King will. Thus through Christ when our identities are restored that we would start realizing what we can do through Him: Healing the sick, raising the death, casting out demons, see visions and dreams and etc. God's kingdom is limitless!

I thank God for this wonderful Taiwan trip, where I met my God so intimately, and spending time with the great servants of God is definitely a big big bonus. God had reveal Himself to us, to our church, and seeing our leaders so passionately talking about youths just excites me! And yes, one word that I had received from God: "Finally". I need not elaborate further right? Yes God, finally!

Regards,

Kenneth

In You I trust

2011-04-19T01:31:00.000-07:00

I wait on you,

To bring to past what you had promised me.

And as I wait,

I rest in faith, for things my eyes cannot see.

For in His ways, He will provide

At just the perfect time, everything thats good and right.

For in His ways, He will provide

To bless this life, of mine.

Mind was filled with plenty of matters, so much yet so little time and such as small brain.

Why?

Is life unfair,

Why?

They don't accept you,

Why?

Hurting between people is everywhere,

Why?

Only through hard ways people learn,

So many whys, but so little time and with such as small brain.

At last I chose to surrender my thoughts to Him.

The only one who has the answer, but chose not to answer my questions.

Still, in Him I trust.

The Miniature of Life

2011-02-12T07:40:00.000-08:00

Just done watching a thrilling game between Manchester United against Manchester City, well well well, it was breath taking, a truly amazing match. Good first goal from Nani, a deserved but chicky equaliser from David Silva, and finally the out-of-the-world goal from Wayne Rooney, a superb overhead kick 12 yards out.

A thrilling and astonishing soccer match.

I had always thought that a football league is some sort of a miniature of life.

When you were born it was a kick off, the start of the season

You win the first match

And the second match

Then as the season proceeds.....

You got a horrible result against weaker teams when you were expected to win with ease

Got sent off for nothing

After your suspension, you were off and running again!

Winning in consecutive matches!

Winning player of the month awards!

When everything seems to go your way...

You got an bad injury, kept you off for several weeks

But you didn't give up..

After several weeks you were back again

And finally at the end of the season, you got your rewards!

In our life, there are so many uncertainties that are not in our control.

When we were born everything seems so perfect. Parents were the ever loving couple, protecting us from any form of danger. For some however, life may already seems dark from the begining, hope was no way to be seen.

As we grew, there were more things that we have to deal with.

Teachers, homeworks and loads of assignments were some tough times but it way spared with several childhood best friends.

Upon graduation the real world was there for us to see. Prejudice, hatred, and perhaps sometimes, love.

There was injustice, and often compromised with some counter revenge from ourselves.

And after all of those, when we are at the end of our journey on earth, if we are permitted to,

Which side would you want to be? The winning side or the losing side? Losing a match doesn't mean you lose your title, you still have time to catch up, it depends on your decision whether you choose to condemn yourself or get up and chase what was lost. Life isn't always well, but all those moments of failing and winning contributes equally to your final reward.

Cheers friends, whatever circumstances you are in right now just remember, there are always chances for you to get back up and gain what was lost and Jesus is there to give you what you had lost.

Just tell Him a simple prayer:"Help me Jesus!" , and thats all what it takes.

He just love you so much.

When accident turned incident

2011-02-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

When accident became an incident.

For human comprehension, it might be one of the off day event that you would ever wanted it to happen, a car accident.

2 weeks ago I was attending lectures in my university, and when lecture ended I picked up my car and started my journey home. Just right after a turn, BANG, I hit a car infront of me, first thought was: Screwed. As usual both of us stopped at the side of the road and of course came out from the car for a routine bargaining session. Scratches were found on the back of the car, and I doesn't have enough cash with me at the time, so I told him that I would bring some scratch removal solvents to remove the scratch for him, he agreed and off I go home.

Days after that we were trying to meet up so that I could clean the scratches on his car, but due to hectic schedules we had failed to meet up. Then came the chinese new year holidays.

And finally today I manage to meet him up again, where both of us were free at the time. I walked to his apartment parking where his car was parked, cleaned the scratches for him and we started to talk at the same time. We started a conversation, and later we ended up in a local mamak stall talking like long met friends.

The best part was that I managed to share my personal testimony with him, and encouraged him to attend church services though he is not a christian.

In awe.

From a car accident and we ended up chatting happily in local mamak stall and he messaged me: Nice to meet you.

From an accident it slowly appeared as an incident well planned by God.

Truly amazing.

Happy Chinese New Year!

2011-02-02T01:05:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

One more day to chinese new year,

This is the day where families are united, gathering together for a reunion dinner. A season of love, especially the love within families. Chinese are very much family-based, a race that emphasis much on the bond within the family. Thats the way I was brought up.

In our younger years, never once can our absence from any family occasions is compromised. Even if so, we would be greeted by our father's stern face.

As I was growing up, I do not understand why.

Why we must be all-present in every single family meetings?

Why some other families their children were allowed to be absent?

As time passed, 12 became 21.

I now understand why. One day after another, my parents were slowly aging.

Grey hairs had slowly overtook the shining blacks. As I look into their eyes, suddenly I felt aching in my heart. I missed them dearly.

Chinese New Year was never about the hype, red packets, mandarin oranges. It was about family.

My lovely parents and their grandchildren!

Our reunion dinner!

Hannah and her!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Key to unlock heavenly blessings - Faith

2011-01-12T08:14:00.000-08:00

The key to unlock heavenly blessings.

Why is faith that important? And what role does it play in our daily life?

It is important for us to understand that faith itself is not something that occur naturally, it has to be cultivated and learned. So now what is faith and what can of faith I am discussing in this post?

According to Dictionary.com, there are several definitions of the word FAITH:

-Confidence or trust in a person or thing;

-Belief that is not based on proof;

-Belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion;

-Belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit;

-A system of religious belief;

-The obligation of loyalty of fidelity to one's promise, oath, allegiance;

-Christian theology. the trust in God and His promises as made through Christ and the Scriptures by which humans are justified or saved.

From all the definitions above, we can have a quick glance of what faith really means. However, Understanding what is faith is one thing and integrating this important substance in our lives is another thing, it is utterly essential for us to understand and integrate it into our lives if we hope to live a better life.

We need faith in our life, because without faith basically we would not be able to live our life on earth unless, you declare that you can live by your own and handle everything in your life by yourselves. But that is impossible in this modern world, the reason? In one way or another we would need to put our faith on different personal, for example we have to believe that the bankers are not playing around with our fixed deposit savings, and we have to put our faith into believing that teachers and lecturers in schools and universities are teaching our children appropriately. If this faith is missing, we would start to doubt in every single stuff that come across our life and with everything bugging us all the time, how could we have a peace of mind at any given time?

"Faith means belief in something concerning which doubt is theoratically possible"

William James

Upon reading the gospel of Matthew in the bible, I was strucked by the numbers of miracles that had happened were due to the faith of that person/group of personals:

Matthew 8: 1-4

When Jesus came down from the mountainside, large crowds followed him. A man with leprosy came and knelt before him and said."Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean."

The proclaimation by the man with leprosy saying that Lord if you are willing, you CAN make me clean. He did not doubt or what-so-ever that God can heal him, even though at that time leprosy was probably incurable. And because of his faith in believing God can heal him, in verse 3: Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man."I'm willing," he said."Be clean!" Immediately he was cleansed from his leprosy.

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Matthew 8: 5-13

When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help."Lord," he said,"my servant lies at home paralyzed, suffering terribly." Jesus said to him,"Shall I come and heal him?" The centurion replied,"Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one,'Go' and he goes; and that one.'Come,' and he comes. I say to my servant,'Do this,' and he does it."

The centurian shown great faith in believing that Jesus' does not even have to go to his house in order to heal his servant, and Jesus Himselves shown approval of this great faith shown by this man and subsequently the servant was healed.

When Jesus heard this, he was amazed and said to those following him,"Truly I tell you, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith......Then Jesus said to the centurion,"Go! Let it be done just as you believed it would." And his servant was healed at that moment.

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Matthew 9: 1-7

Jesus stepped into a boat, crossed over and came to his own town. Some men brought to him a paralyzed man, lying on a mat. When Jesus saw their FAITH, he said to the man,"Take hear, son; your sins are forgiven."...

These men that brought the paralyzed man were men of faith, and clearly they believe that Jesus at the time is the one who CAN help them.

So he said to the paralzyed man,"Get up, take your mat and go home." Then the man got up and went home.

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Matthew 9: 20-22

Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve yeras came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself,"If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed."

The clear understanding of who Jesus was had granted the women great faith, she knew that Jesus is the Lord, and it is mentioned that she said to herself:"I WILL be healed." Take note, she did not say might, but instead she said will. And the result was:

Jesus turned and saw her. "Take heart, daughter," he said, "your faith has healed you." And the woman was healed at that moment.

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Matthew 9: 27-31

As Jesus went on from there, two blind men followed him, calling out, "Have mercy on us, Son of David!" When he had gone indoors, the blind men came to him, and he asked them, "Do you believe that I am able to do this?" "Yes, Lord," they replied.

These blind men were clearly incapable of seeing what Jesus had already done in the past, but yet they have this faith and belief that Jesus could help them and therefore:

Then he touched their eyes and said, "According to your faith let it be done to you"; and their sight was restored...

These were incidents that had happened in the bible, miracles and things that seems impossible and beyond the comprehension of mankind. A person with faith would see a tree growing out from a mustard seed, a person with faith would hold on to what he/she believe even though the circumstances are telling otherwise, a person with faith would pray untill God answers his/her prayer, a person of faith can unlock the blessings that God had already prepared in store for him/her.

Have faith fellows, for faith is the key to unlock the chest of blessings in heaven.

The Tower of Babel

2011-01-08T00:39:00.000-08:00

In the book of Genesis, there happened a defining moment in the history of mankind, a time where God had separated people to different parts of the world. Center of the event was the building of the Tower of Babel. It was recorded in the book of Genesis in the bible, chapter 11:1-9 :

"Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. As people moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there. They said to each other,"Come, let's make bricks and bake them thoroughly."They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortat. Then they said,"Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves; otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the whole earth."

But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower the people were building. The Lord said,"If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other." So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. That is why it was called Babel--because there the Lord confused the language of the whole world. From there the Lord scattered them over the face of the whole earth."

At that time, people shared a common language which enable them the ease of communication because no translation or what so ever is needed in order for them to accomplish a tast or goal. But why God confused their languages? Isn't it good for all of them to speak in a common language?

In order to answer that, we will have to look into incidents that had brought the resulting confusion of languages among the people.

First, the objective of the construction of the Tower of Babel.

Genesis 11:4

Then they said,"Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves; otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the whole earth."

The objective of them building the tower was clear, they were building it to make a name for themselves. What does that mean then? Anything wrong about making a name for ourselves?

Look carefully throughout the passages, there isn't any mention of God in all the things that they were doing. So what is the problem in the construction of the Tower of Babel? I would say the problem lies with the pride of the people back then. They were building the tower for themselves, nothing to do with God and by mentioning in verse 4 that they want to make a name for themselves meaning they want to prove that they can do anything they want, just like God.

There is no wrong in making a name for yourself, but it is definitely not right if the motive behind making a name for yourself is self-centered, is to boast about who you are but not who God is. Thus thats the very reason why God had chose to confused the languages of the people in the time of the construction of the Tower of Babel. The tower symbolizes the pride and the self-centered mindset of mankind.

However there is one thing that is definite good we could learn from the construction of the Tower of Babel, which is the power of UNITY. In verse 6 of chapter 11, the Lord said,"If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them."

God knows what these people can do if they are united as one, speaking the very same language and striving for a common goal. God knows, and therefore in the book of Acts in the new testament, God gave them the common language again:

Acts 2:4-11

All of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit enabled them. Now there were staying in Jerusalem God-fearing Jews from every nation under heaven. When they heard this sound a crowd came together in bewilderment, because each one heard their own language being spoken. Utterly amazed, they asked:" Arent't all these who are speaking Galileans? Then how is it that each of us hears them in our native language? Parthians, Medes and Elamites; residents of Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the parts of Libya near Cyrene; visitors from Rome (both Jews and converts to Judaism); Cretans and Arabs-we hear them declaring the wonders of God in our own tongues!"

There and then, God gave everyone who obey and follow Him a common language, and from the common language a common goal.

Matthew 28:18-20

Then Jesus came to them and said,"All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commonaded you. And surely I am with you always to the very end of the age."

Bold and strong, I encourage you to be. For God knows the potential of His people that when they are united as one, sharing a common vision and passion for His kingdom that there is nothing impossible that we cannot achieve through Him. Humility is the key, and God had given His promises, it is up to us to accept His grace and anointing to fullfill the destiny that He had layed in the lives of everyone of us.

The beauty of Proverbs

2011-01-06T09:07:00.000-08:00

The book of wisdom - Proverbs

If you haven't start reading this amazing book, I encourage you to have a look of this book. It is stated in the very first chapter verse 1-6 on what you would gain from reading it:

Proverbs 1:1-6
The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel:
for gaining wisdom and instruction;
for understanding words of insight;
for receiving instruction in prudent behavior,
doing what is right and just and fair;
for giving prudence to those who are simple,
knowledge and discretion to the young-
let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance-
for understanding proverbs and parables,
the sayings and riddles of the wise.
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge,
but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

The book is so down to earth that it discuss about parent and children relationship, financial management, attitude, character and etc. The basic needs of our daily life, its all written in this book of wisdom. I would love to share what I have learnt from this amazing book, to serve as a sneak peek for some of you out there reading my blog.

In Proverbs 4:14-15:
"Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evildoers. Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn from it and go on your way."

The passage was an advice to all, basically on how we could set our path straight in our lives. "Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evildoers.", now first how do we define path of wicked or walk in the way of evildoers? Isn't path of the wicked or the way of the evildoers are very subjective? I may think that watching pornography is wrong but you could think that is right.

In Genesis 3:22, God knew that we human now, like Him can tell the good from the evil:
"And the Lord God said, "The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil....". Your biological body knows what is good and bad as well, your T and B cells are fighting bad bacterias and viruses.

We know what is good or bad, deep in our hearts, we know. Its just that sometimes we allowed our values to be compromised with the majorities, to be covered with layers and layers of deceptions. We chose to ignore the bad, evil in order to find a place for ourselves in this society, in the world.

You may ask:"If everyone is doing it, the TV is showing it, Internet is full of it, newspapers are publishing it, so what should I do to not be involved in it?. Avoid it, the proverbs said.

It is important for us to realise that sometimes, we have to start avoiding ourselves to fall into traps. For instance to make sure we are not infected with AIDS, the simplest and best way would be abstinence. Using a condom does not solve the problem, it only decrease the risk of getting infected with the disease. Same goes to our daily lives. How to we make sure we would not start doing things that wasn't right either against the law or the word of God? The best way would be again, avoid it.

This is what I have learnt from the book of Proverbs, more to come.

New Semester - January 2011

2011-01-05T23:26:00.000-08:00

Its wonderful! Finally after almost 2 months of study break, I am going back to class again on 10th of January. Just managed to enrolled myself for coming semester, and the moment I knew I am taking 7 subjects I was like:"Ok, this is something new".

Wasn't expecting so many subjects in a single semester, anyhow I wasn't worried nor pressured, being the usual me I am sort of thrived to tackle the difficult tasks. I have had so much favor of God in the passed semesters in the previous one and a half year, I totally admit that it wasn't me but Him alone that I could do well in my studies. I thank God for that and I'm not flattered by the success I've got from previous study experiences. My friends were giving advices to me, asking me to consider dropping one subject or two to take the huge load off my shoulders and I thank them for their concerns they have shown to me.

In Proverbs 1:7 " The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instructions."

In God I believe, for I hold on to the principles that were imprinted in my heart, that God is the source of all things that we ever-need. I believe God has what I need and therefore by getting close to Him, I knew I could do anything that He wanted me to do.

God is the CREATOR of the world, so what is so difficult about biology, physics, chemistry or maths to Him? He created them.

Though God, I believe I can.

顺服，一生都学不完的功课

2011-01-04T10:19:00.000-08:00

这几天我从新去阅读创世纪，

虽然读了几遍，但这次我定意要领受不一样的东西，我用研读来形容我新的读经方法。

从创世纪5-6章，看见了一个人的生命。

他的名字叫挪亚。

创世纪6:8-9这样形容: "惟有挪亚在耶和华眼前蒙恩.......挪亚与上帝同行."

很显著的，挪亚在神眼前蒙恩，是因为他与神同行，是因为他完全的顺服跟随神的步伐。

创世纪6:13-22，上帝吩咐挪亚建方舟:"上帝就对挪亚说.....你要用歌斐木造一只方舟.."

第22节提到挪亚的反应:"挪亚就这样行..."

创世纪8记录了洪水以后，挪亚一家要出方舟的情形。13节提到:"...挪亚撤去方舟的盖观看，便见地面上干了"。那时挪亚可以选择立刻从方舟出去，毕竟在里面大约有370天之久。他可以这么做，但他并没有。第15节提到:"上帝对挪亚说....都可以出方舟"，这之后，挪亚才和他的家人一起从方舟里出来。

挪亚的生命，我可以用四个字来形容: 完全顺服

建造方舟不是一件普通的事情，而且是个长时间的工程，有人推测最长可能要花上100年的时间。一百年，可以想象其间可能有很多流言蜚语，批评论断，在长时间的催眠下很可能打击挪亚的信心。再者，圣经里只记载了上帝吩咐挪亚建造方舟，但却没记录在建造过程中神是否有向挪亚说话。我看见的是一个完全顺服并忠于神的人，是神所恩宠的人，执着于神在100年前对他说过的那番话，坚信他的神所应许他的。

完全的顺服，是我从挪亚身上学习到的功课。

他的顺服，让人类存留了希望，带来了人类与其它生物短暂的救赎。

但有另外一个人的顺服却带来了人类的永恒救恩。

他为了你和我的缘故，虽然挣扎但却完全顺服，只为了我们在永恒里可以有永远的平安，喜乐。

有一首蛮旧的诗歌，很有意思。

顺服，一生都学不完的功课。

New Year Resolution 2011

2011-01-03T21:54:00.000-08:00

Its 2011, and it is already the 4th day into this brand new year.

Pastor James shared a sermon based on a familiar bible verse when it comes to this time of the year in Philippians chapter 3:12-14:

"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take gold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. but one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwatd in Christ Jesus."

Forgetting the pass, embrace the present, and strive for the future.

These are the 3 things that would define my new year 2011.

Forgetting my failures, as well as my success, in doing so I would not be bounded by my previous failures which would stop me from believing what I can achieve through God, believing that I could do great and that retification could be done. Forgetting my success to prevent myself from being deceived by my pass achievement, putting me firmly on ground to work hard and smart in order to achieve the same, if not more.

Embracing the present, to live the best I could be living, now. Do not delay nor wait, I want to live my life as it is, to fully utilize the time I have in doing things that are pleasing in His eyes. That could be watching television, paying friends visits, cell groups, dating time, anything, that is pleasing in His eyes.

Striving for the future, to keep myself on course on what I want myself to be in the next 5 years. Where I would be standing in the year 2016? Thus goals are set, and they are set to be achieved.

I want to be more Christ-like this year, definitely there would be ups and downs in the year, but I by faith proclaiming that through all these ups and downs in the year 2011, I would eventually emerged at the end of this year as being more Chirst-like, being closer to God.

I thank God for the past 2010, and is anticipating what is installed for me in 2011.

I love Photography

2010-12-29T01:00:00.000-08:00

Ever since my younger got her first DSLR camera, a gift from my father, I as well got affected. Photos says a thousand words, and most importantly it records all the special moments of memories. I wish, hope, and want to get myself a DSLR camera next year, and slowly develop my interest in photography and hopefully do what I love in the future, wild life photography.

Following are a few masterpiece that I had taken, enjoy!

Even Greater Youth Camp

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Glad Tidings Chinese Church Leaders Camp

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KL International Motor Show

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Summer Christmas

Even Greater Youth Camp

2010-12-28T10:18:00.000-08:00

It was a fun and life impacting camp for the secondary students in Glad Tidings Chinese Petaling Jaya. There were many first times in this camp, first time managing camp for all the fresh committees, first time speakers, first time group leaders.

The camp was held at EL sanctuary, a remote venue away from city noise and splendour, surrounded by woods and trees, it was a pretty nice place, a perfect place for souls to be rejuvenated.

El Sanctuary

Dining hall

The Bungalow where services were held

The 3rd dorm

First day
The campers had to work their socks off to survive the first telematch set up by the committees. The ballon stomping game, Protect your paper!, as well as the final and the funniest Zoolympics. Physically exhausting, but they would have experience the second day program before claiming this was physically demanding.

All pumped up!

Excited

Probably the finest shot of the balloon war!

Protecting the treasure!

The Zoolympics

The first night were filled with sounds of praises and worship. The speaker Patricia Lee triggered the interest of these students into praise and worship, after prayers by sister Jessie Wong. It was a fruitful night, and yea, I was the worship leader for the night, it was so long ago that I remembered seeing youth jumping up and down, worshiping so deeply in the presence of God. My prayer will be that these youth would continue to carry this passion for praise and worship into their everyday life.

Worship

Answering the call

Patricia with mic

Second day
The morning started with group devotion, definately one of the highlights of the camp, educating these young fledglings to listen to the voice of God early in the morning. Followed on was a nice breakfast, before that was a warm up session.

Devotion =)

We love exercise

Breakfast!

Then came Justin's debut, Standing for Jesus. It was enlighthening and had certainly hit the hearts of the youth! I'll always stand, always stand, I'll always stand, for you!

Always stand

Prayer

Answering the call

The afternoon was one of most challenging time for the campers, the Expedition, the big one. They were required to fullfill each given task, completing each and everyone of them before heading back to the base to recover the pearls. That was the mission and every single one of the had fullfilled their mission, no matter fast or slow.

Did I do anything wrong?!

Off they go!

Spin spin spin~

Thats nice!

How many will be down?

Poke it!

Row row row!

Should I go for it?

Fear factor

Climb the stairs!

The last puzzle!

The last night was meant for someone special to step in and impart essentials into our lives. None other than our beloved Reverand James Wong. Even Greater, that was what he had urged the young people to become, even greater in our daily lives, in our dreams, in our acts. And through God, we are able!

Beloved Ps James!

If you think thats the end, think twice. The night was not going to end before the Unplugged Talent Show ends. The stage was set, and here goes all the talented campers showing off their talents. Some of the were real funny, and some of them were touching. As a judge myself, I had to be rational, sorry peeps!

The Unplugged Talent Show

The Judges

Third day
The final day, final push for the campers, only to be rejuvenated in their spirit to be even greater, for God. The morning started with devotion, aerobics, and of course breakfast! I'd to admit that the food that we were served these few days were class above the others, each meal were cooked with so much details and efforts, bravo to Mr Vincent!

A little entertainment for the campers after 3 days, the Super Trio Show!

Not the Super Trio, we are the guests!

Then, praise and worship time, and later on its my turn, my debut. I was sharing on how to become a Christ-like student in school. Decisions were made, not emotionally but rationally, to be committed in changing our attitude, and our lives to become more like Him, to glorify His name.

My debut

Life imparting

Conclusion:

I believe I am seeing myself a new generation of young people, young leaders rising up for God. Firstly the committees, bravo to all of them. Felt so touched and glad to witness their growth and transformation from campers to committees, I believe in them as how God had believed and will continue to believe in them, to fullfill their great potential, to do greater things for God! As well as the younger ones, the group leaders, myself I was made an assistant leader when I was 14 (If I did not forgot =P), press on, and one day you will become the leaders for the youths!

I love all of you, young peeps!

Developing a Supernatural Lifestyle Review (3) - Challenges of Kingdom's Lifestyle

2010-12-08T01:34:00.000-08:00

Every kinds of life faces challenges of its own, to adopt Kingdom's lifestyle, expect not only abundant grace but also moutains of challenges. Christianity is not only about blessings, favor and success, as it is clearly stated in the bible in the gospel of John 16:33: "....In this world you have trouble...."

The problem is that we always thought that once we had accepted christ, we should not be going through any kinds of hardship nor challenges. As long as we cling on to this false perception, we will never achieve the destiny that God had imprinted in our lives. Our God is a graceful God, but at the same time He is also a stringent King, whom of Him all rules were layed. He knows that only through challenges that His people would grow, turning from a crude rock into a refined diamond.

The process of refining is not enjoyable, it is more of endurance. It wouldn't be fun going through tough times, having needing to go through the fire of refining.

Christians have to start believing in God and expand their capacity for God's work. God is always bigger than our challenges, He is always victorious but for some christians, our faith is too small to believe that God can pulls us through our difficulties, it is too small to believe that we can achieve more success through Christ who strenghthen us. Our faith is the key to unlock God's blessing, is the measure to how great can God bless us.

In facing challenges, we may fall. That is not an issue because failure is an inevitable part of life, not only inevitable but indispensable as well. Learning how to fail is a process of gaining more knowldges about ourselves, learning that we are not perfect and that we still have room for improvement. It is important for us to realise that faith is one thing that pushes us to take risk. Yes, risky and out of the comfort zone.

Things that is under your control do not need faith, because you know you can do it. But it is in those area that you are in risk of failing that faith is required. Meeting challenges is like getting out of your comfort zone, you will never know how far you can go if you never take a risk to venture into an unknown realm, and that requires faith.

Do not be worry, do not lose faith, because God had already promised in John 16:33:

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

Character X (2) -- Discipline

2010-12-07T20:48:00.000-08:00

The talk of character continues. In the first post of this series we talked about humility and how it would help us if we'd integrate this into our daily lives. Discipline, is another ingredient in the recipe that we need in order to be successful or to live our life to the fullest.

Discipline, what it is all about?

"Discipline is the refining fire by which talent becomes ability"

-Roy L.Smith-

I've heard many people, including myself complaining about how limited is our time, how wish we could have 48 hours a day! Having said that and relising what is the problem with it, I knew that I had to change, I had to be more discpiline. You may think that discilpline restricts your creativity because you may think that it does not give you the freedom to do whatever you like to do at any given time or moment.

Think again.

Discipline is not restricting, in turn it releases and enhances your ability to be creative and at the same time being efficient. It helps you to finish your task in hand in the right duration and that allow you more time to do more things that you can ever think of. Be disciplined and you will find that you are having more time to do things than before.

Being discipline is to endure and finish off given task no matter how much you hate it. Being discipline is not an emotion-based decision, it is an rational-based decision. Meaning one day you might not be feeling to be discipline, but you chose to be discipline. For instance a property agent would have to have enormous self-discipline in order to achieve higher sales, it is not emotion-based decision because the agent may not have any income at all if him/her based on their own emotions. There would be tough times in life, time that we would have to dig deep and overcome it with a rational-based decision, to be discipline, to be persistant to overcome the situation.

So be discipline, and remember discipline does not restrict or stop you from being creative, but it enhances your creativity and turn them into enormous ability!

Down but not out

2010-12-02T07:23:00.000-08:00

Any grown ups or kids that had watched any episode of Ultraman could tell you the ending of each episode without watching it: The bad guy had few shots at the Ultraman, the light turns red and blink, then the Ultraman fights back with the killer strike, Ultraman wins.

An epic example of never stop fighting, when you had fell, come right back up and fight again.

It is easy to be condemned in past failures, bragging about it all our lives and that's it, there goes our lives, wasted due to our failure to get right up when we fell. Great man and women in the history were not great because they did not failed in their lives, they were great because of how they overcame their failures and moved on to make success in their lives. Abraham Lincoln overcoming time and time of election defeats and finally being elected as the president of the United States; Thomas Edison overcoming times of failure in finding the right material to make the lgiht bulb and so many more other great man and women in the history.

There are 2 example in the bible that we could use to illustrate what differences it could be when we decide to either condemn ourselves in failure, or to move on from it.

King David (2 Samuel 11-12)

In the story of King David, recorded in 2 Samuel, had sinned against God, by committing adultery and set up the husband of the women whom he had gone to bed with, to death ultimately. Knowing this, God sent a prophet in the name of Nathan, to rebuke him and pointing out what he had done wrong and immediately King David confessed and asked forgiveness from God. A King we are talking about, he could have just ordered marshalls to take Nathan down and put him to sentence because of accusing the king. But he did not, he knew what was wrong and switfly admitting it and submitting to God once again. He then became one of the greatest king in the history of Israel and God stated in Acts 13:22 :"I have found David son of Jesse, a man after my heart..".

Apostle Peter (John 18,21)

Apostle Peter was one of the greatest apostle the bible had ever recorded. But one of his most infamous act was his denial of Jesus during Jesus' presecution, which then led to a temporary heart breaking period for Peter. But in chapter 21 Jesus talked to Paul and 3 times He asked Peter whether he loves Him, and all 3 times Peter said yes. Peter had 2 choices, one is to condemn himself to what he had done, or two to accept God's love and grace and bounce back to serve Him more. Peter chose the latter, and because of that He went on to spread the word of God so passionately that 3000 accepted Christ in one of His sermon.

So my friends, I urged you that in life, all man and women would fail in one way or another. The question you should ask yourself is not how could I possible fail, or fall but to ask yourself where do I go from now, do I stay one and keep bragging about my failure or to take the failure as a lesson so that you will never let it happen again?

The decisions are yours to be made.

完全交托，在你手中

2010-11-30T20:55:00.000-08:00

最近在听一首歌，一首很感人的歌.

提醒了我很多东西，也完全的溶化了我的心. 有多少时间我们在挣扎，不愿意放手，不愿意把自己的不安全感完全交托. 将工作，家庭，人际关系，甚至所有的情绪自己一个人来扛. 听了这首歌，我全然轻松了。

“凡劳苦担重担的人，可以到我这里来，我就使你们的安息。” 马太福音11:28

交托，是信心的动作，代表完全的顺服.

交托，也是把生命完全托在祂的肩膀，生命中一切让祂为你扛.

交托到来喜乐，带来安息.

当你选择完全交托给祂，祂就会为你的生命负责到底，永远在你左右，永远不离开你.

生命就像一天条橡胶带，你拉得越紧，橡胶带就越容易断开，但当你学习放手，橡胶带会是完美无缺.

学习交托，顺服是一生都学不完的功课，但我相信至少我们可以今天比昨天更会交托，更多顺服.

Developing a Supernatural Lifestyle Review (1) - History Maker

2010-11-24T21:23:00.000-08:00

This would be the first review of the book "Developing a Supernatural Lifestyle" as I am reading through it. Would share my thoughts and my gains from this book, a book that is of such impact and importance.

Chapter 1 - History maker

What do you understand about histroy makers?

I define history makers as people whom had did something in their life on earth and had left an impact big enough for people to remember and embrace their thoughts throughout generations and generations, for example Thomas Edison, Abraham Lincoln, Socrates, Plato, Albert Eistein, Bill Gates, Steve Jobs and etc. These people had done something in their life that were worth talking about even generations had passed and people are following their footstep. Their existance had change the surface of the world, their existance had change the way people think and live. This is what I call history makers.

Jesus, above all, is DE history makers. His existance and life on earth had changed the destiny of the whole of mankind, that is replacing enternal death in hell with enternal life in heaven.

"Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father." John 14:12

Jesus said in the bible that we who believe in Him, shall do the things that He did and even greater things than those He had done. If Jesus is the greatest of all history makers, than christians should be one as well. This is what we were all destined to do, this is what we all were created for, to be a history maker that changes the way people lives, the way people thinks.

Religion and Christainity is two very different categories. We can be very religious, but we might not have the living God in us. Many Christians are living in a relm of religion, and were bound by religious rules and thinking, in doing just so they are missing out what is the greatest gift that God had gave His people, the life of Christ. Jesus is beyond religion, and He is not bound by religious rules and regulations. He has a life of the heaven and He wants His people to have one too.

Christians are meant to do great things for God, to impact cultures and change lives. If we don't start playing our role, then devil will replace our role and thus impacting cultures and changing lives into their mold. A history maker lives not an ordinary life, but a life of heaven, a supernatural lifestyle.

We must start to learn to understand our destiny and realise what we can do if we follow whatever God had told us to do. God does not just ask us to do whatever He had done and ask us to do it ourselves, He told us how we could do the same in John 14:13-14:

"And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."

We can do it not through ourselves, but through God our saviour who strengthen us! Our God is not a boring God, He doesn't like doing ordinary things, He loves extraordinary thing and as His people, lets embrace this mindset and this characteristics of God. The only way of becoming a history maker is to live like Him, Jesus Chirst. If we can live like Him, meaning we can do what He did, we can be what He had became, a history maker.

Today, let us start realising our destiny. Not to live an ordinary life, but an extraordinary one by living out a Christ-like life. You can be a history maker, you can be a culture-changer, if only you want to be one.

在你手中 - 我的外公与外婆

2010-11-23T10:04:00.000-08:00

1989年我出生了，往后的十余年我的成长跟我的外公外婆是息息相关的。

2010年，我21岁了，但外公外婆在相距一个月内离开了我，回到天父那里去了。

对于他们，有说不出的思念，因为他们付出的实在是太多太多了。

外公在战乱时期出生，自小就失去了父母亲，一个人从中国渡江来到马来西亚。严谨的工作，认真地对待人生，但却从满了对于孩子和孙子们的疼惜与关爱。他的爱虽难以从日常的谈吐听见，但他却用一生的付出来表达。还记得小时候生日时，外公会用两个碗盛饭互相叠在一起作为我的“生日蛋糕”，外公的疼惜，我实在毕生难忘。

外婆的一生，可以用一个字来形容--笑。外婆脸上从不缺乏笑容，虽然一生进出医院，包括大大小小的手术不下300次，但每次见她，她还是会以笑容来迎接，外婆很可爱，真的很可爱。小时外婆常唱“外婆桥”来哄我睡觉，而且她特别喜欢唱一首歌，“小草”。歌的内容就像是外婆一生的写照，不怕风，不怕雨，立志要长大，小草实在是并不小。

外公与外婆的爱情是许多现代人无法理解的。没有甜言蜜语，没有浪漫玫瑰，有的是一生的承诺，有的是一生的付出，牺牲。

他们的生命深深的影响了我，虽然他们不擅长言语，但一生的表现胜过千言万语，对上帝的信心亦是如此，生命的艰难没有夺取他们对上帝的信心，反之让他们更紧紧抓住上帝的手。

两个月前外婆离开，我哭了。

一个月前外公离开，我也哭了。

哭，是对他们的思念，对他们的不舍。

我告诉自己，如果我承接到他们一半生命的精华就够了。

在外婆去世前一天，我们唱了这首诗歌给她听：

在你手中

我将耶和华常摆在我面前

因你在我右边，我便不致动摇

我的心欢喜，我的灵快乐

我的肉身也要安然居住

我将耶和华常摆在我面前

因你在我右边，我便不致动摇

在你面前有满足的喜乐

在你手中有永远的福乐

(诗篇16:8-11)

外公外婆的信心是大的，是阴间的权势不能夺取的，因为他们已经选择了上好的福份，他们选择了将一生交在耶稣的手中。

现在我喜乐，因我知道他们有喜乐，因我知道他们在耶和华的手中。

我爱你公公，婆婆，有一天我们在天堂见！

Gender Crisis

2010-11-23T08:56:00.001-08:00

Human DNA consist of 2 pairs of chromosomes, each inherited from either one of the parents to make it up to 46 chromosomes in total. 44 of those were autosomal chromosomes and the other 2 were sex chromosomes with a combination of either 2 X chromosomes or 1 X and 1 Y.

This is a human karyotype for a male, where you can notice that it consist of one X and one Y chromosome respectively.

It is very important that after each stage of meiosis that the gametic cell in female and male consist of the normal number of chromosomes, that is 22 + 1. However due to non-dysjunction that might happen in the process of meiosis, it may cause unequal amount of chromosomes ended up in different resutling gamettes. Thus now we could easily observe serveral well understood phenotypic expression of these resulting genetic information that had been inherited in some individuals. Klinefelter syndrome and Turner syndrome are 2 of the more well known phenotype that was caused by non-dysjunction.

The left is the karyotype for a female with turner syndrome whereas the right is the karyotype for a male with Klinefelter syndrome.

Karyotype for a male with Klinefelter syndrome

The effect of these mutations are shown on the phenotype, both resulting in non-fertile offspring. Now here is the problem. Do we determine the gender of a particular individual depend solely on the chromosomes presence? Or do we have to consider the secondary sexual characteristics as well as the hormonal level that are presence in the particular individual?

Throughout the history of Olympics, there were many cases where an athelete was stripped of the medals due to failure in the gender test. One of the most controversial case happened at the 2006 Asian Games. Santhi Soundarajan was a middle distance running silver medalist, but was later stripped off her medal due to her failure in the gender test that were carried out by a gynecologist, a geneticist, an endocrinologist, a psycologist, and an internal medicine specialist. They concluded the reason of Santhi Soundarajan falling the gender test was that she does not possess the sexual charateristics of a women. Media later had reported that she might be suffering from Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome (AIS) where the individual would have chromosome X and Y but the body would not respond to androgen, resulting in a female phenotype but does not posses ovaries.

Had this enlighten you?

XY does not necessary to be male. Sexual determination had been involved vastly in the sports arena to maintain the equality in competition, however in Santhi's case, she was unfortunate to be true because several female that were tested containing Y chromosome were allowed to compete in the 1996 Alanta Olympics.

Now since whether you are a male or female does not only lies on whether you have Y or X chromosome, let me ask you a question,

Are you male or female?

References:

Matt Stopera, The 10 Most Shocking Olympic Gender Scandal [online], Available at http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/the-10-most-shocking-olympic-gender-scandals [Accessed 23rd Oct 2010]
Murdoch Children's Medical Research Institute, Human Karyotype, [image online], Available at http://www.biotechnologyonline.gov.au/popups/img_karyotype.html [Accessed 23rd Oct 2010]
Seals Genetics, Prince of Wales Hospital, Randwick, Karyotype for Klinefelter's syndrome, [image online], Available at http://www.genetics.com.au/factsheet/fs31.asp [Accessed 23rd Oct 2010]
Clinical Tools, Inc., Karyotype for Turner's syndrome, [image online], Available at http://www.le.ac.uk/ge/genie/vgec/hp/chromabnormal.html [Accessed 23rd Oct 2010]
Katie Thomas, The New York Times, A lab is set to test the gender of some female atheletes, [online], Available at http://www.nytimes.com/2008/07/30/sports/olympics/30gender.html?scp=1&sq=santhi%20soundarajan&st=cse [Accessed 23rd Oct 2010]
Emine Sanar, The Guardian, The gender trap, [online], Available at http://www.guardian.co.uk/sport/2008/jul/30/olympicgames2008.gender%20The%20gender%20trap [Accessed 23rd Oct 2010]

Love

2010-11-16T23:19:00.000-08:00

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

(1 Corinthians 13:13)

This world wouldn't be the same without love. Without love, there is no room for weaknesses, there is no need for forgiving. A world without love would be such a scary place, a living hell it would be.

All men and women needs love, an undebiable fact that we all have to accept. We want to be loved, be accepted, be celebrated. Since we were born we craved for attention and love from everyone surrounding us and even as we travel down our years, love is still very much what we lived for. Having tons of success but have no one to enjoy your success with, how bad can that be? Suffering from hardship of life without companions, how meaningless could life be?

³⁷ Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ ³⁸ This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹ And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ ⁴⁰ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

(Matthew 22)

Love is not self-indulging, love is sacrificing. When imperfect coincides, the ability to accept and embrace differences comes from love. Love makes sharp edges curve, like water that cuts through stones.

It was pretty much of what I am feeling right now, I felt love. From my interaction with my family, my love, and friends, I felt love. It is the most satisfying feeling that you can ever get, better than any mode of success in the world. Recently my sister just gave birth to my little niece by the name Hannah. She is simply, amazingly adorable. I felt so loved when I was holding her in my arms, looking at her beautiful face had touch the deepest part of my heart.

Besides, I've got such time to spend with my beloved family. We are of different personality no doubt, but the differences doesn't pull us away, but glued us together to embrace differences in each of us. I love everyone of them, my stern but cute papa, lovely and adorable mama, quiet but good big bro, charming and joyous jie jie, thoughtful and wise 2nd bro, and also this mischievous and intelligent little sis. Not forgetting my 2 very very cute aunties and also my brother-in-law, he is a great example for me. Each of them makes my life complete and I love each and everyone of them dearly.

Then there is my love, she is always there for me, supporting me and encouraging me though I was a little bit like a hard wood due to my special personality. I always imagined us being the couple in the animation UP, building our own family together and spending every moment of our life together till the very end. I am and will continue to love her and grow together with her in the love of God.

Then there is this few very special people, the Ongs little sisters and brothers. Maybe it was due to the similarity between my family and their's, but in an equally amazing way, God had put us so close together like birth brothers and sisters. I am thankful and greatful to be able to participate in some part of their life, seeing them growing is my joy and I love them dearly too.

God had put all these people in my life to show His love to me, and I know He himself loves me too. I always thought we all are like a baby in His eyes, He is holding you in His arms everyday, looking at you and He had so much joy even if you just sneeze. He would sing you to bed everyday, feed you and protect you. God is love and remember not only we are enjoying the moment with God, but He is also, enjoying every moment He got to spend with you.

Life is full of hardship, but take courage my friends out there, whenever you are in need, love is there for you to pull you right back up. And remember, love is God, and God is love.

Love on the streets

2010-09-20T06:32:00.000-07:00

16th of September was a great day of love. We were having spiritual parenting review class yesterday and we were asked to go on the streets to share gospel to strangers. It was a very welcomed invitation by my own basis, hasn't been doing this for a long time.

It was refreshing to be able to walk on the streets and does the thing that Jesus did, touching lives on the streets. Be it believers or non-believers, in one way or another lives were touched through Jesus's ministry on the streets. We were divided into groups of 4, myself, alven, kelvin and leayee formed a team and we decided to go to a place where many people might not know: The real Old Town. Yes, its the real Old Town and I've directed them to an unknown place for many people: A 'food court' behind Chen Moh.

Thats the place where I used to be for breakfast and lunch during my primary and early secondary school time. First thing arriving in that place, I heard people talking about Jesus. Just sitting behind us, we were listening to them while we were having our meal. Then at the right moment, we stepped in. Lea Yee stood up and one of the guys at the back were telling the others whether want to ask her about something or not. Perhaps because we were wearing all for Jesus t-shirt, so having heard what they were up to, lea yee invited them to ask. At the same time I stepped in to the scene and started a conversation with them. Really thank God for the chance to talk to them, having shared my testimony with them and hopefully one day these seeds that I had planted would grow!

After the first approach, we went to a bus station for a second attempt and we saw an old folks sitting by the bus station. Alven and I approach that uncle, and started conversing with him. It was like all these were not coincidence but were planned in some sense. The uncle started to tell us about his frustrations and suffering, pains and tests he was going through. At the end when we prayed for him, he cried. Random? No, I don't think so. I believe it was God's will and plan for us to be there at the time to encourage him, to pray for him.

Thank God for this wonderful experience once again, this is what we are supposedly be doing, spreading love on the streets!

Character X (1) -- Humility

2010-09-14T20:13:00.000-07:00

Humility is good, isn't it?

After the burial of my grandma, I got a chance to sit side by side with my wonderful aunt Har Bee. I was talking to her about what I had observed about young people of this generation. I told her: Talented, but lacking the character and attitude to succeed in life. And she nodded, agreeing on what I've said. It was very heartache to have said that, but thats what I saw from young people now a days.

Humility is definitely one of them. From my observation, teenagers and kids are getting more and more talented. Each generation bettered the previous. Perhaps its due to DHA or the different exposure if compared to generations before. Now here is where the problem is: Because each generation is becoming more and more skilled or talented, thus for them, it doesn't make sense for them to listen and obey the orders of the older ones. Humility is not an outward action only because it requires inward decision to create an outward expression. Thus humility comes right from the inside, from the very inner part of a person.

In the scriptures God showed us how He perceive of humility. As written in Ephesians 4:2 " Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love." Humility meant so much to God, Israelites had struggled so much between arrogance and humility, as God had mentioned to them in 2 Chronicles 7:14 "If mt people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

Humility does not only apply when we were dealing with an older personal, it also applies when we are dealing with younger personal. Normally we would have thought that humility only applies when we were talking to the elders, however I believe a stronger humility comes when we are able to be humble to listen to the younger ones. We take one example from the bible as an example: David and King Saul. King Saul had a very humble beginning, having orginated from the smallest tribe in Israel yet God gave him the throne because of his humility in his early days. On the other hand David was a teenagers during the reign of King Saul, and there was this giant Goliath from the Philistine. David offered King Saul that he would fight Goliath, however he looked too small and skinny compared to his opponent. At that moment King Saul was humble enough to have listen to this young little teenage boy who does shepherding and agree to let him goes to the battle. And the outcome? The giant was down.

Matthew 18:3-5 "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me." Jesus Himself is the greatest act of humility, having come down from heaven to earth to be with us, suffered and crucified on the cross. He honored the elders and welcomed the children. Humility meant thousands to God, for God is always searching for a humble heart that He could use to turn this generation up side down.

My grandma of my mother's side had passed away last Tuesday. She was an angel when she was living her life on earth: never complain, never scolding, never criticizing; always joyful, always encouraging, always comforting. She might looked ordinary in many people's eyes, but not mine. She was a warrior, a true warrior with a gentle heart. Her humility and love towards others made me felt more for losing her.

Young people, respect the elders and listen to the younger ones.

The Power of Tongue

2010-09-04T09:16:00.001-07:00

"If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. " James 1:26

This verse has strucked my heart. Very true indeed, for everything we speak, everything that came out from our mouth, could bring an impact that everyone of us cannot imagine. Words from our tongues can do 2 things, either build or destroy ourselves and the others. In Proverbs 12, we could see the effect of our tongues on the lives of people.

I am bearing such a guilt in my heart for some words that I've spoken recently. Though it doesn't hurt anyone, but the Holy Spirit convicted me so much that I felt such guilt in me, an unbearable feeling that I hasn't experience before. As I was dealing with this guilt, God spoke to me, pointing out the root of the problem: My tongue.

I recalled what Ps Jessie had shared in the prayer meeting last Tue, she said that God told her that her temper would destroy her if she is not cautious enough. And that strucked my mind, as if God is telling me Kenneth, your tongue is going to kill you if you are not cautious enough and bang! It was so direct. I was convicted and I confessed the sin of my tongue and let it all to Him.

Words from our tongue does wonderful things, you can praise, sing, or curse. Its a choice, whether you want to say it or not. Remember, no one force us to speak unless we wanted to. Thank God! Lesson learned!

2 years on

2010-08-15T09:33:00.002-07:00

2 years together,

2 years together we've been through much. Joy, sorrow, disappointment, surprises, happiness, and contentment, just to add to the endless list. Really thank God for holding us together, and most importantly know each other deeper and deeper as time passes.

I still remember the very first time we held our hands, the first very first time we spent a 2 person time in KFC, and in KFC I was studying Physics, she was studying management, that was the start.

2 years on, so many things we've been through together and so many things that we've done together. I'm very proud of her, she had grown so much and now we serve together in church, in youth, in sunday school, even sometimes in cell. Thank God for this same vision that He had impanted in us, because we may make mistakes, but God never will.

And today, 16th of August 2010 is the 2nd aniversarry of our courtship and I believe its only the second year to the many years that would follow through. Today when we talked about our courtship, we were imagining ourselves as the old man in the cartoon animation "Up". The touching stories of the man and his wife were in our imagination and we hope that one day we would still be that sweet and loving even every hair that we have had turn grey, but of course, with children! =)

Before today she was so supportive to me as she waits patiently for my finals to end. I really thank God for an understanding companion like her, she is my soul mate, she is my lover, she is lim lea yee.

Hopefully the dinner we had yesterday would not deprive us from this joy of our 2nd aniversary! I love you!

恢复

2010-08-02T07:12:00.000-07:00

约束亚--我深渴望

天父我呼求你

来恢复我们的心

让为父的心意转向他们所爱的儿女

吸引这个世代

感受你的同在

来医治恢复我们

开启你的儿女

经历你的大爱

你的爱

我的心何等渴望

你恢复这属于你的世代

愿你国度完全彰显

在这地就如同在天上

恢复

简单的两个字却代表了上帝对这个时代，对这个国家，对你和我的心意。

恢复上帝起初创造的圣洁，完美

恢复上帝在伊甸园与亚当，夏娃的誓言

是圣洁，无瑕疵，拥有与造物主一样的形象。

恢复人类起初对上帝的完全顺服，完全相信。

主啊，这个时代需要你，我需要你，来恢复。

Sentimentalist

2010-07-18T09:18:00.000-07:00

Wow, it has been ages since I last posted in my blog! So many things that had happened in between my last post and now, so many to an extent where I could not write it all here.

For the months that had passed, I could sum them all up in 1 word that separates in to 3: Favor in my study, work and ministry. Yes I am 21 years old this year but yet there were many people think that I does things beyond what I suppose to do in my age, especially in this BIG 21 year old. Basically I have a few roles to play in my life: Son, Brother, Boy friend, Friend, Tuition teacher, Businessman, Biotech student, Worship leader, Cell leader cum driver, Sunday school teacher, Usher. Yes, I think thats all. I thank God for all the things that He had led me to, every single experiences is valuble to me.

But really at times I felt so tired, tired of needing to handle so many things at once. Burn out, and physically challenging as well. But what amazed me is how God had taught me through my family and people around me to deal with things better, to handle things better. God had shown me that His grace was suffucient for me, insteed, more than enough for me. And through my work, study and ministry I can truely see how He had chosen me to be His vassel of His favor!

Its hard for me to describe it in words, I'm not good in doing this. But trust me, its so overwhelming till an extent that I couldn't believe it was really happening! Thank God for all His mercy and grace!

从破碎到自由

2010-04-12T04:30:00.001-07:00

我渴望更多得着你

干渴的心再次满意

我渴望更多经历你

除去软弱从新站立

今天我要遇见你

我的生命不再停留

诚实面对自己

接受释放与更新

从破碎到自由

经历医治和真平安

宝血所立的约

承担羞辱换来喜乐

从破碎到自由

从新连结在主爱里

极致的爱和恩典

领取祝福再前行

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGKKkll7Ito

最近深深被这首诗歌吸引着，每一天早上还未作任何事前都会把它开来听。是的主啊，使你让我从破碎中的自由，使你是我诚实面对自己，接受释放与更新。

从大卫王的生命中，我真的看到上帝所喜悦的，不是死撑，不是假装，而是最诚实的自己。大卫王是上帝所称，合祂心意的人，为什么？没错，他曾犯奸淫，杀人，骄傲，但大卫王最难能可贵的是他对自己及对上帝的诚实，他知道也承认自己犯罪，他承认他亏欠了神。他没有在人的面前伪装，当先知拿单在众人面前指出他的罪时，他没有老羞成怒，没有任何的反抗。他大可命人把拿单给杀了，但他没这么做，这也是大卫王与扫罗王最大的分别，大卫王对自己对上帝的诚实换来了上帝对他的喜悦；而扫罗在攻击了敌人后没遵上帝的命令把所有牲畜杀了，还自己献祭，过后把自己所做的错推卸得一干二净，也换来了上帝对他的厌恶。

在这个重视包装的世代，有多少个人在卸下面具后，能接受最原来的自己？有多少人有勇气去承认自己的软弱，自己的不足？承认软弱，诚实面对，这过程可能会艰难，但破碎后有自由，难过后有平安。求神帮助我和你，成为一个诚实面对自己，别人与上帝，上帝所喜悦的器皿！

Money, Money, Money!

2010-01-20T00:02:00.000-08:00

In a perfect world, money is not important, it is not an issue. It drives people crazy, some even make their whole life to live for it. I am a person, without much money, just blessings of God. Hmm, nice it way sound, but i am feeling the pressure of having empty pockets, empty wallet, but well, God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. Money money, Lord, when will the world stop talking about money? I bet it never will.

Year of Favor for me!

2010-01-04T02:31:00.000-08:00

It has been a great year back 2009, everything was fast and furios, and time flies! So many things had happened in a year I was forced to face the reality, down to earth I could say. My dream to study Medicine or Pharmacy vanished, dream for getting any chance of studying abroad almost died off. It was a roller coaster ride, having done and accomplished so many things, but many questions were there for me, if not God to answer.

I believe in Miracle, there are a lot of things that I don't understand, but I'm learning to be remain slient, remain quiet, await great things to happen. This is a year of favor, a year of adventure, and a year of venturing into the land of promise God had put in mind for me. I know its there, some where out there, though I do not know exactly where it is, but I know, its there.

Year of favor, a year of favor in my life, in my study, in my family, in my ministry, in my relationship, in my country! God, it is all up to You!

In favor,
Kenneth

Can't time just stop?

2009-11-05T09:50:00.000-08:00

"How wish I am 18 now and I can drive myself to any where I want", " How wish I can live my own life, earn my own money and buy the things I want". Aren't these saying familiar? Well, this used to be words said with high hopes and high spirit, but when you are really there, you wish you could take back those words.

Things has changed, many things were left in the memory lane. A fear of growing up? Maybe. Recently I was thinking back the times when I was a little boy, when I have mom on my side, and dad is always there for me, no worries at all, really none. But now, I missed those times, those innocent days, where I could just do whatever I want to do.

It is uncertain what future lies ahead of me, I really do not know. But one thing for sure, one thing that had never changed ever since I took my first breath on earth, my God has never changed. He was, and He is still the Lord of my life, the one who has marvelous plan for me.

Pretty sentimental right? Well, I do at times, when sentimental took over my rasionality.

1 year and more to go!

2009-11-04T10:41:00.000-08:00

It has been a year, 2 months and 20 days since we have pledged and committed ourselves to be together. Yes, this is me and my beloved lover, Lea Yee.

Isn't she beautiful? Well, its kind of amazing on how a nerd like me could get such a beautiful girl as my soul mate, its a weird plan God has in mind, but hey, I would be more than happy to be in this weird plan! Many things we have gone through together; Happy times, arguments, surprices, all-that-you-want we have it!

Well, particularly, she doesn't like the way i dress myself, well, she would label me as ugly, or disgusting hair style, but hey, 9 out 10 she is right! Amazing right, but its true, I got to have to buck up myself to be more fashionable, anyone offering a hand? For example how to tell myself to love fashion more than....my books? Thats how she thinks of me, I love my books more than my outlook. Haha, but its kinda fun though because I get to have free fashion advice from her, I love her style, and I love to shop with her, especially recently, she had brought this shop-for-your-need-anytime mindset to me, got to get used to it. =)

People always sees us as a very sweet couple, yes indeed we are! But behind the sweet impression we have work very hard behind the scene, to know each other more, to discuss about our differences, our opinions on things and our future, we have done all those behind close door, and we ripe the fruits! Arguments, or shall I say discussion made us understands more about each other. There were even times when we felt frustrated on each other, but with thorough discussion, prayer and little sweet surprices, the relationship reached another level.

And now, after 1 year plus plus, our relationship is indeed, very very firm. Though still not reach unbreachable, but thats our aim for the years to come.

A letter of committment to Lea Yee:

I will love you for who you are, love you unconditionally. In whichever way I could, I will do my best to fullfill your needs. I will be your listener and will lend a shoulder for you if you need. Whenever you need me, I will be there for you physically, if not in any other possible way. Love you forever with all I could.

A letter of committment to Jesus Christ:

Dear Jesus, thanks for you leadership in this relationship. Please continue to guide us, lead us, so that we would love you more than we love each other. Help us to be focus on you, help us to be more mature, help us to cling on you and stand firm in you. Jesus, we love you, I love you!

Does it worth it?

2009-11-04T10:24:00.000-08:00

We rate things in this world by what the particular thing worth. How much is a Prada bag worth? Is it worthwhile sacrifcing time to study? Is is worthwhile believing in something that virtually does not exsist? Tags were put on things in the world; this particular fellow is poor in his study, that girl is pretty, or even racist as times. Why? Why do we tag people like this? Since when the culture of labelling became the force behind the markets?

Is it worthwhile to do something that is right, even if you know you will suffer from that decision? Once a quotation says: Freedom is something that you ought to do, no what you want to do. Certainly. Suffering for the right course seems a "Righteous, Religious" statement, however, it applies to our daily lives. Isolating time out for studying, you will have to say 'no' to facebook, twitter and so on. Is it suffering? Yes, definately for most people, including me. Is it the right thing to do? Yes, most certainly without question.

Yet why there are so little people out there whom are suffering for the right course? Well the answer is, lack of courage. One thing, in my opinion seperating great man and women from the norm, is that they have the courage to do what is right to do, and suffer for what is right to do. Take Thomas Edison for example, over thousands time experimenting for the right materail for bulb? Crazy it can sound, but yet, after thousands of trials, he finally found the perfect match. Suffering for the right course? And to name a few more, Lincoln fighting for the rights of the Blacks, Mother Theresa sacrificing her life for hundreds of people in India.

Its easy to say, but can we do it? Or can I do it? Its hard, its tough, and it needs courage, tons of it.

Am I really that good, or perhaps bad?

2009-08-21T01:30:00.001-07:00

Its kinda weird to post this, cuz there were so many things that had happened recently made me starts to wonder, who am I really is, and am I really that good, I wonder even am I qualified to be classified as good. Things has changed, time passed, and I'm now lost in the midst of time. Some people said I am good, mature, good leadership skills, but then deep inside me, I know, God knows, that I'm aren't that good actually.

I kept teaching people to have good self-esteem, but myself? I am not good at it at all, I look down on myself, on what I can do, on how things will turn for me, well, am I just a joker who just play a fool around but failed when the real business comes by? Well, its pretty true man, seriously, I thought myself to be one at some point in my life, no value at all.

But I know God sees me differently, He saw the good in me, He saw the potential in me, He saw the, indeed, REAL me, the one who can deal with things inch-perfect, the one that can handle responsibilities, and the one who will surely shine for Him. God sees the real us, He penetrates through our hearts and reveal Himself as our image. Shreg off the negative thoughts, there is no time for that anymore, with time passing in light speed, there is still much catching up to be done.

With my new Uni waiting for me in Nilai, I can't wait for things to start, new experiences await me, new friends and potentially new souls are waiting for me as well, Lord, send me to your harvest field, let me be your servant, let me be the harvester.

Loves Science, can't wait to get myself dirty for the sake of science, and of course, for the sake of God! =)

You're Overcomer, more than a Conquerer, today, discover a Champion in you!

Even when you did something wrong

2009-07-01T19:51:00.000-07:00

Lord Jesus I love you. How many times in our lives that we will fall and make false decisions? Doing the wrong thing at the wrong time in the wrong place is probably the worse that we can do. We got the shame, got the blame, got scolding. I have done so many wrong things in the past, and God reminded me once again, son, I love you.

Why? What? Who I am to deserve such grace and love? Sometimes I don't realize that this was my pride, neglecting me to receive God's love and grace. Jesus, you are so good to me, in good times or bad times, you are my Lord, my King. You never leave me alone, nor forgotten me.

Engkauku sembah, Kau yang terindah
Pulihkanku dengan darahMu
Engkauku sembah, Bapa mulia
Seumur hidupku, ku mau menyembahMu

Jesus, strengthens me, expand my faith, to love you more, to know you more. For my life is Yours, for I am is yours. Jesus, I love you.

MIxed feelings

2009-06-22T01:56:00.000-07:00

YEss! Finally this weekend i will witness the wedding of my sister and her long-loved fiance! Can you imagine after 8 years of courtship people are still tight together like them? And they are as sweet as before! I'm learning from them too, haha, because I believe the foundation of everything is God's love. YEss, happy~~happy~happy....

Well, I really don't understand, really really don't, i was argueing with God all the while for this matter, why does he send me away from this land? From my family, church, and my loved one? I don't understand, and this time he wants me to study things that I wouldn't dream of studying! My heart tears apart by the time I got this news, it is not in my planning at all.

Slowly and slowy, God is as if showing me something, He is trying to tell me something, I guess its 'Your mind is always greater than my minds'. Yes, He is the boss, He is, and I am just the servant. Then I could recall all the great servant of God in the past and present, how they commit themselves in having faith in God. Lord, I want to be one of them. I start to feel like what Ps Philip shared, that is the tear in the heart when I need to leave my beloved cell group, Cheras Youth cell, when I went there, there was literally nothing, and now my cell members start growing and is on the brink of multiplying, and God says: Hey Kenneth, its time to go! Speechless yet I know if I remained there, I might be the barrier of the cell's growth! People may not remember us, but God always remember what we did for Him, and for who we are.

6 more days to go and I will have to leave my home for an unchartted journey of life, at least for 4 years. Lord, lead me like how You've led Abraham, Moses and Joshua in the past. I love you Jesus!

Confession from my heart

2009-06-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

For all you are, for who you are, worthy of all praise. Throughout all these years, You have been so faithful and true to me, it was truly my honour to be able to follow You, Jesus, if it was not of Your grace, I wouldn't be where I am now. Blessings over blessings, then tests over tests, I'm tired, I'm tired and at the brink of collapsing, You hold me, You hold me in Your hands, You never abandoned me, You are always there.

Jesus my Lord, my Saviour. I love you Jesus, it is You whom I love now till forever, never gonna let You down again, never gonna miss you out again, my Lord my Saviour, I love You.

Engkau ku sembah, kau yang terindah
Pulihkan ku dengan darahmu
Engkau ku sembah, bapa mulia
Seumur hidupku, ku mahu menyembahmu

Passion for a Kingdom

2009-02-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

Recently I've got the chance to watch a few movies, some of them was truly classic for me, and some of them made me think deep. Out of those, IP Man and Valkyrie are the two that stand out for me.

Both of them shares something in common, passion for their country. Both at the end sacrifices their lives for the sake of their beloved homeland, for all cause they were ready to give it all, to redeem their nation. And today, how many of us are preparing to do so? How many of us here are prepared to sacrifice our life for our homeland?

Many have sacrificed, many have suffered, blood are shed, just for one soul purpose, for their nations. And Christians, are we ready to do the same? For the Kingdom of our all mighty God? Are we ready to share the love of Christ at all cause? Jesus loves everyone, yes, everyone..

New Year, New Life

2009-01-15T20:10:00.000-08:00

Its 2009, boom, time flies really, it certainly will not wait for me! Already 16days into the new year, all I could say is thank God for bringing me through!

Everyone talk about your new year resolution when a brand new year comes by, a year ahead to plan, sounds great and exciting! I am waiting for my stpm result now, mean while being a part time printing worker as well as a tuition teacher, life can't be more content in that way! About the tuition job, is a chance that I wouldn't have expected, one day a sister in church come to me and ask me can I teach her son, although I did not answer yes on the spot, but deep inside my heart was a huge YES! Thank God for that opportunity..

As for my further studies, I have been dreaming on studying my first degree outside Malaysia, but perhaps financially I wouldn't be able to do so, so my conclusion is Mat 6:33 Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these will be given to me! I will just keep doing my research on those opportunity, so the others? Let God la, haha..

Hmm, to the sensitive part of my life now, my relationship. Well, I don't really talk about this in public, I find it quite difficult =P. But then another second I thought: Hey, if its a good thing, share it out then! Well, first of all I really love her very much, Lim Lea Yee, if you don't know her. This wonderful lady appear and have been in every chapter of life since last year, I love talking to her, love starring at her, because she is so gorgeous O.O..So many things happen that they have not weakened but strengthen our relationship, dreaming on going vacation with her, dreaming to marry her! though because of my 'chu xin'ness have made her suffer a lot, but thank God because she is still hanging out with me! Gonna pray hard, so that wouldn't make her suffer again! Thank God for everything, thank God for her, love Jesus a lot a lot, and of course, love you =) a lot too..

Last but not least, in this new year, most importantly that I want to know God more, and be with Him more. A lot of things can change, people around us, the economy, the world is nevertheless becoming more and more unpredictable. 'My word will not fade' that sums it all, I will cling out to the word of God, cling on to Him to draw strength, cling on to Him to save souls! Before it get worse, come and cling on Jesus, for He has blessings and peace in Him. Jesus, take all of me for all of you, take all of me for all of you...

New Year, New Life
Kenneth

the journey of life

2008-12-11T07:08:00.001-08:00

11th of December 2008, it has all ended, the end. An ending to be celebrated of, or is it vice versa? Life in form 6, in secondary school has ended, quite reluctantly. A journey that has stretch me to my limit, broadened my vision, built me up holistically as a person. before the end i were crying for it to end, however by the time i reach it, i was so desperate that everything can continue as it is. From 15th of May 2007 to 11th of Dec 2008, this was the golden years of my life, a time duration where i felt most lively, happy and enjoyed.

Start from the beginning i know this would be real tough, all this while i knew it is gonna be a real test for me in this year, God hinted me of what lies ahead last December, strange feelings of big things happening ahead of me during last dec. i started being very stress from the beginning, my emotions were very unstable throughout the year, but thank God He hold me through. So many happenings in this year, revival meetings, youth church events, but all i could do was just stay at home, saying no to these was a real struggle for me.

My spiritual life at a point was at the lowest that i have ever been, very dry, thirst for God yet im not reading the bible nor during devotion at some time, almost died spiritually. And once again, really thanks for the mercy and grace of God, His compassion on me that He did not give up on me, really thank God for that..

And late in June till Dec, my strength were push to the limit when i have to take over the functioning printing company for a short peroid of time, it might be ok if i wouldn't have tos tudy for my STPM, but with stpm, i am put into a real test. Stress level build up to another threshold, i cried for times, asking God why do all these heppens, i wasn't sleeping very well at night, woke up a few times while sleeping, i do not know seriously i did i survive that..

And finally, everything ends, stpm has ended, now i can take a deep breath. When i look back now, all i can see is the grace of God, the mercy and strength that He has given me, is all Him..I wouldn't do all this if it is by my own strength, but with God, im willing...

The run to the end

2008-09-07T22:39:00.000-07:00

Just manage to squezz out this time to write a little bit here, haha, happy! Well, life has not been easy, test after test, not exams, but test of life, character, and values. But just really want to thank God for so many things, so many happenings in my life, really glad to my papa in heaven!

First of all, really thank God for one thing, one of the most wonderful thing that can happen in my life. I have started courtship with a girl who we come to know each other since young, grow together in church, serve together. Really thank God that we prayed and seek His face before we move on to another level of relationship, and really thank God for this wonderful blessing in my life, and to God, we ought to build a holy relationship which will bring blessings to people around us, I love You Jesus, I love you babe!

Well, thats the nice part, and what follows will be a bit..

Its already 8th of September, just 62 days away from the STPM. Finally it has almost come to an end, but the end seems so near yet so far, time is ticking every second, so do my heartbeat is pumping faster and faster as the end reaches. Stress level is building up, beyond the treshold I could say. Its a do or die scenario, and almost no way back from this. Consideration and decision-making would follow soon, can I do this all by myself? No, I couldn't. I would fall apart and fail everything I do, but He is full of mercy and grace, and by His mervy and grace I can certainly do this! Haha, Amen!

Dedicated to Jesus:

To God I seek His face, and through Him I find joy and peace
For He said I am the way the truth and the life
He will lead the way and I will just follow
Wherever He leads me and whatever Hes ask of me
I will just do it, just for the sake of Him

Laminin---The Cross in our body

2008-07-19T10:08:00.000-07:00

Amazed, blown away...What can I say, this is God's act to the fullest, speechless..Don't know what I mean? Check this out:

Now you know what I meant? This truly blown me away, laminin is a protein in our body that practically glue us together, glued our organelles, cells, organs together. It is an essential constituent of the plasm membrane. So basically without laminin, we would fall in to parts.

Its truly astonishing, this truly prove that we were hand-picked and hand-made by God, every single one of us, you and me...Jesus hold us together all the time, no matter you are sad or happy, He is always IN us! Just commit yourself to Jesus, let go of your burden to Him, He will hold you tight, hug you all the time, be with you whenever you needs Him or at times that you think you don't need Him! Its really simple, because He loves you...

P/S: For more references regarding protein laminin, you can click on to the following links:

http://www.bdbiosciences.com/discovery_labware/products/display_product.php?keyID=238

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laminin

I will rise, on eagles' wings

2008-07-17T10:46:00.000-07:00

Come live in me, all my life, take over..

Come breath in me, and I will rise, on eagles' wings..

Thank God, thank You Jesus, yes I do Jesus, yes I know father, thanks...Business fills my life recently, really busy and tired, exshausted...But thank You Jesus, I will rest in You, I will find peace in you, I will find joy in You....

Tears of helplessness...

2008-06-24T10:57:00.000-07:00

Recently, life has not been that tough before. Wake up at 6am, end up at home at 7pm. I will have to go to school in the morning, and afternoon will be traveling around the whole Klang Valley, its exhausting for me, really tired at both the ends. And while I was still pushing for more, my body decided to hold me back and say, Kenneth, that's it, I have had enough!

That forces me to take a day off my studies and work, this was my first time after years. Felt helpless, nothing I could do to change anything now, all I can do was to rest and let my body recover. Its tough for me, having so many things on the line, helpless I could say. On Sunday morning I went to church, one particular song touched the deepest end of my heart, it certainly did...

当我感到软弱无助

你能力显得完全

我要全心的相信

你神迹如此真实

不是自己依靠实力

乃是依靠你的灵

我要全心的相信

你神迹如此真实

I wept like a kid in front of Jesus. Why am I so stubborn at times? Why do I always depend on myself? My heart was broken once again, only to be rebuild by the Holy Spirit and by the love of God. Not by my strength nor wisdom, but by the Spirit of the living God! Dear Father, I just want to walk with You, hold You tight and finish this tun with You...I love you Jesus....

Happy Birthday, to YOU!

2008-06-24T10:07:00.000-07:00

Friday was a special day for a very special person to me, she is really special in the sense that she is from God, for me! She is a very beautiful, nice, and charming girl, God-loving sister. Having to know her so deeply since last year, she is really special to me now. So last thursday I went to night market together with her, had a very wonderful time, then sang a birthday song to her with a small piece of chocolate mud cake. Just hope that she would be happy and enjoy the time. May God bless her with blessings from heaven, fill her with the Holy Spirit, and fulfill Your destiny in Her! Well, she is really special, for me, no words can describe...

This is a pic of her and two little actor and actress during christmas, the one on the right is her little bro! Beautiful, isn't she?

There is only a fine line between life and death...

2008-06-16T01:35:00.001-07:00

Talking about life and death, its always a very interesting topic for people to talk to after meal, but not many take it seriously. Its a very very important and serious matter that everyone of us should be aware of, life and death is just separated by a breath...

3 days ago, my class were doing an experiment, the dissection of rats. So to faint and kill the rats, we used ether to do so, the effect of ether on human is pretty mild, if only a huge amount of this chemical is inhaled, then it will cause difficulty in breathing and so on, and if it is too severe, it might lead to death. So happily we did our interesting experiment, and at the end of the experiment, we cleaned our stuff and went back to our class. Job done! We thought....

Then the unexpected happened. One of my friend who went to throw away the waste, came back in a pretty awful condition, he was finding hard to catch his breath, and suffered from headache and chest pain. At first when we saw this, we knew this is the effect of over inhaling of ether, but we thought that he could recover after resting for w awhile under the fan, but he didn't. Later on he lost all his strength and couldn't walk by himself, then we ran to the PBSM to get the stretcher to get him down to the PBSM room. Now everyone realised how serious this is. we started to do everything we could, including triggering him to vomit, which will help him to eliminate some of the ether. Then, he loses all his strength, and we were trying all we could to keep him awake. I was there when I saw his eyes were not going right, its a symptom when one is going off. There and then, we could have lost him....

But thank God he managed to survived this accident that no one would have expected. There and then he could have lost his life. Its only a breath separating it. And if now you're still taking life for granted, please think twice, because life and death is separated only by a fine line. And if you are leaving the earth today, do you know where are you heading? A question for everyone of us to answer, life and death, heaven or hell....

Sometimes, you just have to follow....

2008-06-09T04:34:00.000-07:00

Its has been quite tough in the past 2 weeks, life have not been that easy all year long, hmm, but, phew, thank goodness I am still here, still standing...

Last week, the Awakening for Jesus camp was held from the 4-7 of June, its a revival service, its a life changing and nation changing time for Malaysia. I will certainly go, that's a norm. But, due to exams, I have to stay put at home to study. Its so so not me, hmm, its so tough to do something like this. Its just not ME!!!!! Sometimes I do wonder and ask God, why in this period of time? Why you put me in STPM while you are about to pour down your revival in Malaysia? Why do I have to do all these, its so not me...

Its so pain and tough in my heart, especially during the four days revival conference, and after the conference. Its so pain and tough for me when I know others were calling and seeking God to pour down revival to my beloved Malaysia but I could do was just listen to their stories. So many things went through my mind, so many thoughts. Not only this, for the sake of stpm, I have come not so active in ministry, when there are so many things going on, so many doors God is opening for our ministry, all I could do was staying put and study. I don't like this kind of feelings, its not fun, certainly not!

Well, any how, I believe in the risen one, I believe that everything happens according to His plan. Maybe at this moment I couldn't understand, but I am willing to obey dear Lord, I am willing to listen and follow what You've ask me to do, I am willing to surrender my all to You. God told me two things in June,

1st of June-
While we're praying hard in the prayer meeting preparing for the camp, God ask me to look, and then I look to everyone who are praying so hard, crying to God for revival in Malaysia. Then a thought came in: I will pour down my revival to this generation..Thank God, His promise. I played guitar in that meeting, and one of the strings eventually broken, and I took the string and tell God, this is Your promise!!

6th of June-
It was an evangelistic night service, A Trip To Hell. Shared by Ps Philip Mantofa, it was an unforgettable night. The fear of hell and the fear for the lost who might get into hell is just too overwhelming. And during the altar call, I was standing in front of the ladies, due to the mass no. of incoming crowd responding to the altar call. There and then, one thought came into my mind, its from God, He says: Remember today, remember tonight, remember the pain....I will Father, I will remember...

Its a route that God wants me to go through and I believe He has His beautiful plan behind all these. I will follow, I will follow You...

Life is beautiful-Namesake
Chorus:
I have decided, to follow Jesus (x3)
No turning back, no turning back

Though none go with me, still I will follow (x3)
No turning back, no turning back

The cross before me, world behind me (x3)
No turning back, no turning back

Overwhelmed, thanks buddies!!

2008-05-30T01:06:00.000-07:00

May--Well today, if you do not know, is the official date for teachers' day. Well, as far as I know, today is not only teachers' day, it is my birthday as well. Hmm, did not expect much, because everyone was busy with teachers' day's stuff in the school and on top of that, our mid term exam is just 5 days away. Hmm, furthermore, I am not a kind of person who takes my birthday so important, just want to thank God and my parents that I am where I am now, to express my gratitude to them. Never thought of any birthday parties, it has never even flash through my mind.

Well, God knows. Haha, well, my 6th form mates have find time to plan this not too surprise party for me (Well, I knew they were up to something in the past few days =P). Hmm, but still, it was too overwhelming for me, I was shivering most of the time when I am cutting the cake, it is too overwhelming for me, though myself never thought of having one for myself, but thank God that He gave me friendsss around to celebrate with me, its really too overwhelming...

Thank God for everything, thank God for everyone of you, thanks everyone, thanks dear all 6th form mates!! Thanks Wan Te, Yun Fatt, Eugene x 2, Guan Tyng , Jonathan, Zhuan, Soon Hong, Adeline, Li lin, Pei Yan, Davina, Sook Ann, Zhi Yee, Joanne, Gin Li, Wen Geey, Yi Kee, Jin Bang, Ghoon Hoong, Yeng Ying, Kok Hooi, and all other friends!!!! Thanks Thanks and may God bless you all!!

That's why God chose young people!

2008-05-23T23:48:00.000-07:00

24th May 2008, found some time to write something here, life is so beautiful and exciting....It is nearer and nearer to the Awakening for Jesus Conference in Malaysia, we believe this is a the time for revival to spark across Malaysia, it is NOW!

I was heavily involve in youth ministry, though a youth myself, well, sometimes people do not recognize I am one =P..haha..anyway, just want to share that in the years I have been reaching out to youth, I have sometime comes to a bottle neck, where I suspect whether this is the ministry God has in mind for me. Well, time and time again, God assured me, told me the reasons why He wants to use young people, why He wants to touch young people, and time and time again, this pushes me on and on, and I will never turn back from this..

This is a picture of youth worshipping God, in a4j youth camp. God told me a few things, simple things that makes Him wants to use the young people in this generation to do something no eyes have seen before.

Firstly, because of the PASSION of young people.

When young people really get excited about something, they wouldn't exchange anything for that thing, you see young people getting so excited for their favorite singers, footballers, and we have all heard about young people waiting in the airport for hours just for the arrival of those people. So now just sit back and imagine: When young people's heart get so excited about God, they will just do whatever they could to accomplish the things that God has commanded them to do, because they are passionate of their God, they are fired up to do things for God!

Secondly, the BOLDNESS of young people.

Young people do not think twice while doing things. This has it's positive and negative point of view of it. But generally, we need to have that kind of boldness to really step out for Jesus. Sometimes we knew we need to do something radical to start the spark, we knew but never took action. Boldness is the substance that drives us on to do so.

In my school, we started praying during recess outside our christian fellowship room, people could see us praying. And on one particular day, I was busy finishing my chemistry report while I asked my member to go on and pray without me. What happened next is amazing. One of their friends saw them praying and they actually observe them while they pray, so when they finish praying, their friends asked them what they were doing, and they answered they were praying. And they asked again what they were praying for, and they answered again they were praying for the school. And they were like:'Wow, praying for the school ar, so great...then can you pray for me too?' This is God in the move, not us! Hallelujah!

Recently, I have started a 6th Form prayer meeting in my school, after sharing with a couple of friends, we have started it. We started praying in front of CF room, then later on move to our class room, and while we are praying our friends passed by. Praise God when we start doing so, one of our non-christian friend joined us and we prayed for him. And we all agreed that this is what God wants us to do, do something radical for the sake of God. And we know that we cannot have the old mindset of saying: Wait, there is no need doing this, others will come and do!' Sometimes it just need a step of faith of a person to spark the fire of revival in your family, your school, your college, university. And that is YOU!

God is calling for the young people of this generation to rise up to the occasion and inherit the promise land God has for us. It is now, it is this generation, a new generation who loves God with all their hearts, minds and souls. This is the time, God is calling for YOU!

All God saints in the latter days

Have you ever heard what the Holy book says

Visions and dreams we all shall see

Holy Ghost fire saturate our beings

Sounds the drums in the heavens beat

Hear the S.O.S form the devil's keep

Time is ticking and the world is dying

RISE UP YOUTH TO THE HOLY CALL!

Life is beautiful..

2008-05-16T05:51:00.000-07:00

Life is beautiful isn't it? Hmm, this picture on the left shows my beloved form 6 friends, particularly my U6S classmates. Well, life is so wonderful with all these people that God has placed around me, really thank God for these people, we have really formed a tight bond between each and everyone of us, we laughed together, ate together, go toilet together, visit teachers together, take exams together, suffer together, organize events together....Hmm, its really hard to see an end to this fantastic period of my life, but, things move on, so do us. There might be a day where we might have our own things to be busy with, our own family, own work, own buisness, but all these sweet memory that make up my life will follow me till the end, hmm, life is beautiful not because everything goes smooth for you, it is beautiful because of all the little moments that make up your life. Well, life is just beautiful....

P/S: I strongly recommend one song entitled 'Life is beautiful', meaningful and it touches my heart, and I believe it will touch your heart too!

www.jaesonma.com (Click on to the song under 'Namesake' album)

Go Malaysia, I support YOU!!

2008-05-13T02:46:00.000-07:00

Its a great experience visiting the Parliament, really thank God for such an experience, enjoyed and cherish every moment I spent in there, witnessing our YBss presenting their point of view in some issues, really happy~

I've stepped into a place where the governors of the country come together for the good of the country, a place where decisions are made for the people, that can decide the destiny of the country. I felt honored to be able to sit in and listen though only for a short period of time, its my pleasure to be a Malaysian, I am proud to be a Malaysian and I thank God for that. After what we called the 'Politic Tsunami', Malaysia goes on, and I will support Malaysia all the way, for I know there is a reason why God put me in Malaysia, I believe God has His own plan in Malaysia...

Have been praying for Malaysia for quite some time, just couldn't stop to pray for the country. Lets together pray for revival to swept across this nation, pray for God's kingdom to be built here in Malaysia, pray for blessings to fall upon Malaysia!!

Malaysia, my home, my country..

Time Flies~~Lower Six Orientation

2008-05-13T02:29:00.000-07:00

12th May, it was yesterday, the orientation day for a new batch of form six student. Well, all I could say is time really flies. A year before, about the same time I was down there listening to the seniors about life of a form six student, how tough can the STPM can be....

Well, one year on, now it's my turn now to do all the talking up on the stage. One year have passed!! A mix feelings for me, it was so hard to describe my feelings, touched yet its kind of a reminder for myself, reminding me that I am at the final days of my form 6 life. After going through 1 year in form six, I can conclude that I had never regret entering form 6. I thank God for that, for my friends, for everything that have mould my character and my attitude. And for the final days left, I will make sure I work my hats off, I have promised myself not to do something that I will regret, I want to get good results, because I want to shine for Jesus!!

As for the lower 6, all the best in your future studies, all the best in your route to the finale next year, remember, PLAY HARD, STUDY HARD!

a4j首张EP - 甜旋蜜转

2008-05-11T05:04:00.000-07:00

This is the first ever EP by a4j, Glad tidings Chinese Church Youth!!
Grab one piece of this product and I bet you will not regret!!

On the 24th of May at 8pm, we will held the BLOOM MUSICAL NITE and we will launch our album that nite, so do come on that nite, its held at our chinese church main auditorium, neighbouring BCM chape.

Listen to the gentle whisper..

2008-05-11T04:39:00.000-07:00

As I was writing here, I am telling myself at the same time, to listen to the gentle whisper from your heart, to listen and obey the gentle whisper, whom we call the Holy Spirit.

How many times we have ignored this gentle whisper from our heart, who tries to tell us that there are dangers ahead of us, tries to tell us that which is the right way to do things. Holy Spirit is God, Holy Spirit leads us in all expect of our life, be leaded by the Holy Spirit, so that our life will not be sweyed to the wrong end of the road. Holy Spirit, come and be our all, come to fill our life once again, come and move in us once again, so that we are empowered by you to accomplish things that our Father in heaven have told us to accomplish. Cannot live without you, Holy Spirit..

A trip to Cameron..

2008-05-11T03:21:00.000-07:00

Haha, well, during last chinese new year, our family went to cameron for a new year break, its really fun and enjoyable, with everyone pack together, the togetherness sometimes is just too overwhelming...

A tough run in........

2008-05-11T02:34:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since my last post, or even my last 'visit' to my own blog. Hmm, well, kinda busy these days, that is why this blog has recently became a wildland. Hmm, well, life is really wonderful, hmm, having said that, all things that make up our life, no matter good or bad, are meant to make our life an unforgettable one. Life have been reasonably tough these days, having all my studies, ministries, works and all on the line, it is really tough to juggle all at the same time. I have became quite imbalance emotionally because of this situation, knowing that I need to in fully accelerate mode in order to get my 5A and Band 6, and there were so many things I wanted to do in my ministries, this is like taking my whole life to figure it out. But well, God's mind is far better than mine, or you can say, ours' are negligeble comparing to God's mind. Well, when I really sat down and think about it, and at last, I found the equilibrium point. What I am doing, what I am living out, its all for Jesus, the only reason that keep me doing all these, it is Him alone. Well, no doubt it is real tough at times, frustration and emotional imbalance would fill my mind, but every time I go through that, I know that I am one step nearer to what God wants me to achieve, and I know that God knows as well all the things that I am going through, that I can overcome it for He would not give us things that I could not bare (1 Corhintians 11:13). Well, its the route its still on, it will be a tough run in towards the end.............but.......

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to Him side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

P/S: Well, not forgetting this, a4j youth EP will be launch soon!!!! Haha, thank God for that..so, pls grab yourself this annointed EP, which will surely impact your life!! 24/5/08, 8pm @ Glad Tidings Pataling Jaya (along Jalan Gasing)..

Being Significant, Making a Difference in life...

2008-05-11T02:33:00.000-07:00

Well, haha, glad to be back on this blog again. Really thank God for what and how He has blessed me during the Chinese New Year, really thank Him for everything, love Him so much!! Haha..Recently, I have forgotten which particular day, as I was thinking things, thinking of what I want to do in my future, the Holy Spirit reminded me of one thing, whether I want to be someone of great succes, achievement, position but who did not make any difference in someones' life? Or I want to be someone who maybe earn less, less fame, living an modest life but who make a different in someones' life. Well, honestly, this is a paradigm shft for me. All this while I was thinking to be a man of great success, position, achievment, and I've said that I dreamt about becoming a multi-bilionair, international entrepeunuer for God, and neglecting what God really wants me to do and dream for Him. And I come to know that it is when you follow the will of God, follow the path that He has set for you, follow His voice, that we can really make a difference in life. Being at a right place and right position will enable us to fully utilize what God has given us, and by doing that, and when we are doing what we are good at, we can, be a significant person and hence, making a difference in life. It is not what the majority do that we have to follow and do, it is doing what you want to do, what God wants you to do, that you will flourish and shine as bright as a shining stars. And when we do all that, and through us, that God will make a difference not only in our life, but in life of people who are around us, now that is what I call being significant, making a difference!! Hmm, well, dear Lord, I just want to follow your will, let Your will bhut not my will be done, even it meant to say that I was wrong all this while...I just want to be a person of significant, who makes a difference in lives....for Jesus Christ...

Only for You

2008-05-11T02:32:00.002-07:00

Felt so touched by holy spirit, the letter below are dedicated to my Abba Father in heaven.....

Dear Abba Father,

Father in heaven, this is your son writing to you. Abba father, so so sorry if I've hurt your heart in anyway, sorry for my siliness, sorry for my pride, sorry for making you worry. Abba, you've come to know me even before I am in my mother's womb, you have implanted your destiny and your calling for me in me long before I was born. I'm just so greatful to you that I have this previlage to know you and have you as my Abba. Abba, you know me well, aren't you? Sometimes I thought I was so great that untill I forgot this was acctually all your works; sometimes I get so busy untill I forgot my first priority is to love you and have a deep love relationship with you rather than doing works alone. Abba, I just want to let you know that, I want you more anything else, I want your will but not my will to be done, I want to love you more rather than loving ministries more. Father in heaven, please strengthen me and empower me to do what is right and what I supposed to do, as your son, for I'm weak and vulnerable without you, useless I could say. I will abide in you as how you abide in me. Father in heaven, thanks for everything you've done for me, please coninue to guide me in this life you've given me, let me follows your footsteps. Let me sing you a song, Abba:

Dekat pada Mu itu rinduku
Setiap kataku Kau pun menunggu
Tak ku sangka, ku temukan
Satu kasih yang abadi
Kiniku datang dan ku bawa hidupku

Memandang wajahMu, mengikuti kebaikanMu
Mengejar hadirMu, dalam hidupku
Membawa sembahku, menyatakan kebesaranMu
Mengejar hadirMu, dalam hidupku

I love You, Abba Father....
From: Your son, Kenneth

My 2008..

2008-05-11T02:32:00.001-07:00

Well, well, well, it has been quite some time since I last posted, or should I say 'visited' my own blog. Haha, well, guess maybe because there were too many things in my mind recently, hmm, haha, well...maybe I can label it as business...Hmm...Its already February, and obviously all of things is up in the running, in all cylinders. This year is a vital year for me, everything I've been doing will come to a real test for me, studies, ministries, relationships and etc. All is down to me to make a decision and say, hmm, its tough but I can still do it, discipline is much the issue. But though it sounds tough, but I believe behind all these test, there is a promise land God has for me, which is waiting for me to inherit it. It is so exciting to know that I have Jesus with me to walk through my life, things that He is going to show me, ways that He will guide me to, is almost like an uncharted journey, but that suites me well, haha, I like adventure!! Haha..hmm..well, as long as Jesus is with me, nothing that could stop me from inheriting the promise land God have in His mind for me. Like Abraham, I'm venturing in to a journey which I dont quite know what awaits me, but hopefully one day, God will call me His friend just like how He called Abraham. Along my year 2008 and my whole life, I just want to be as close as I could with Jesus, to know how He feel, to do what He asked, to go where He goes...My 2008...

Memories that doesn't fade..

2008-05-11T02:31:00.002-07:00

Well, been to a youth leaders camp closing ceremony the day before yesterday. The camp is called the Elisha Camp. I've attended this camp a year ago, it was truly a life changing experience for me. Been into the camp, knowing so many new freinds and great teachers. All of this is still fresh in my memory, as if it just happen not long ago. And on Monday, I walk into the hall once again, but only not as a camper this time. I was on the stage once again, but only this time as a worship leader and stage performer. Mix feelings I could say. But nevertherless I still have all the memories with me, memories that doens't fade...

The One and the only One

2008-05-11T02:31:00.001-07:00

The One and the only One....Well, it was November since my last blog entry, I am supposedly holiday-ing, it turn out to be my 'holidays'. Still have to go school in the morning for almost every weekdays in the past few weeks and at nights I would have to attend practices, meetings and etc...Well, busy schedule? Felt exhausted? Well, Physically? yes, Mentally? yes, Spiritually? No....Although I was given tasks after tasks, I am greatfull and full of Joy while doing all these. For I know there is a greater cause for what am I doing, for I know at last only things which pleases Him that counts. Been to my church camp, the only thing I have learnt is to focus and set my eyes on the one and only one saviour, healer, redeemer, truth, life; Father of all blessings, wisdom, talents, anointing and etc....only Jesus..only Him...and it is only for Him that I would do all these...just cannot stop loving You, my father in heaven.....

www.a4jyouth.org

2008-05-11T02:30:00.001-07:00

This is considered late, very late instead. This website was launched light years ago (haha, this is just pure hyperbole). It is a cool site to go to. Go and check out all the stuff there, once again, its cool. www.a4jyouth.org

Revival minded..

2008-05-11T02:29:00.000-07:00

Well, well.....revival, one of the most frequent word mentioned these days, it has really blend into my life, my blood, my mind, my soul. After all the years we've been waiting, after all the revival conference I've attended, it is only now that I can really say, revival is really coming! It is only this year when I get so revival minded, every time I pray I just couldn't get myself off to pray for revival in Malaysia, in this generation, in this world. God is really on the move, it is up to you and me, whether we are ready to catch up with His move. When I heard Pastor sharing about the New York Revival, Wales Revival and so on, I would cry out to God in my heart...Lord, I now there WAS all the great revival that has swap across the world, but, Lord, let Your revival fall on this land once again, let yor kingdom come and your will be done, let the lost turn back to You, let the weak say I am strong, let the poor say I am rich....let your presence fill this land again!! Jesus, let Your name be lifted high! Mountains bow down and the seas will roar.....let us all be prepare and be bold and strong, to win this battle for God!! Praise the Lord!!

恩典..

2008-05-11T02:28:00.001-07:00

哈哈...第一篇华文部落格心得终于出炉了!! 哈哈, 想不到在那么久之后才出现第一个华文字才....哈哈, 没关系啦, 迟到好过没到 =P...最近真的在生活当中学到了很..很...很...很...很...多东西. 很多时候我们认为自己所拥有的是自己应得的, 认为这是本该就给我的, 是因我的所作所为应该得到的回报...但...这是错的!! 牧师在主日分享了3周的'恩典'信息, 这再次提醒了我, 能活着, 能呼吸完全是神的恩典! 更别说能有好成绩, 好的经济景况, 好的家庭....一生都是由神的恩典组成的, 那自己还有什么可夸的呢? 恩典, 是白白给予的一份礼物, 你我不需做任何事情去'赢得'恩典, 因为恩典是白白给予的, 只要你愿意接收你就可以得到!! 那么世上人类可得最大的恩典是什么呢? 美味食物? 豪华车辆? 独立洋房? 不! 人类可得最大的恩典在2000多年前就为我们预备了! 是他! 耶稣基督! 是那位为我们的罪被钉在十字架上三天后复活的那位救世主!! 有了他我不在寂寞, 有了他生命有盼望, 有了他生充满憧憬与惊喜!! 真希望您能与我一起分享这份喜悦!!

The Curtesy of Art of Science & Science of Art

2008-05-11T02:27:00.002-07:00

The Art of Science, cool title isn't it?! Haha, well, last Saturday attended a talk on the the Power of Creativity, it brought up a paradigm shift, where I believe that there is always art in science or vice versa. Don't agree? Well, you just have to look around you.......the Seas, the sky, the mountains, the animals, the universe, and last but not least, YOURSELF!!! It is so special, nothing in this world is completely the same, and in every scientific discovery you would know that it requires huge creativity or in other word ArT sense!! And if you see in the artistic field, when you're drawing something, most of the time you are actually following a certain guidelines, for example to colour the background first or go directly to the pot of flowers? That is what we call logical thinking or in other word, Science sense!! The world is made up of both science and art, so it requires someone who could have both science and art in HIs fingertips in order to create such a wonderful world!! And surely that is none other than our Heavenly Father!! He is the father of science and art, He embrace His creation with His unconditional and everlasting love....He has, is, and will continue bless us through the things created by Him, IF ONLY we were to accept it with a open heart, to experience His love and to enjoy His favour, and He doesn't need us to do anything, just by accepting Jesus Christ in to your life, you will have all the blessing in the world. Even though you might still go through hard times, but in Him we could find peace for He has overcome the world! (John 16:33)

To have a Science and Art Pro as a Father, sounds great isn't it?

GReat Formula 1 ending!!

2008-05-11T02:27:00.001-07:00

Yes!! Kimi won!! Haha, Ferarri WOn!! Haha, very happy because I've been supporting Ferarri since I started watching F1. I just enjoy watching Formula 1....haha....it is a very very nice sport (you might not understand what I mean, but try la =P) Well, formula 1 race is just like the reflection of our life. The overtaking, pit stops, mechanical break downs, accidents, podium finnish or retired from a race can be well identified as the competition, our holidays, ups and downs, unexpected difficulties, sickness...but the way Kimi Raikonen show his perseverence, patient and calmness to win the world championship even though many people doubted him in the last race that he could pull of a supprise, which he eventually did....So let us all persevere, be patient and be calm over any circumstances to pull of a great victory in our LIfe!!

Be a Child.....in Jesus!!

2008-05-11T02:26:00.003-07:00

Exam is over, thank God for the grace and merecy He had on me, couldn't done this withouth Him!!! Haha, yea, God thought me something recently, that is to be a child in front of Him.....well, this really hit me. All the while I knew that I have to be mature when I'm dealing with things: my servings, studies, relationship with friends and family...almost everything and even when I come before the Lord, I tried to be as mature as I could. But I was wrong in some sense....I realise that I don't need to be a mature man when I come before Him, it is simply because in front of Him we are totaly exposed! He knows what we're thinking and what difficulties we're facing and who the true 'we' are. So there is acctually no point trying to be mature and think: Lord, I am big and mature enough to deal with this problem, so thanks for you offer to help but I think am mature enough to deal with this....end up God will say: Ok then, you do this on your own then....well, I've learnt, to be a innocent, naive child in front of Him, the Heavenly Father, cry out to Him whenever I need help, shout out to Him if I need blessing and surrender all the things that I want to do to Him......

Now I realise..

2008-05-11T02:26:00.001-07:00

Just today, I realise something, that my heart isn't BIG enough....Well, from one of the incident happen today, I realise that I was so helpless and weak, selfish....It happen like this: While my mom and I were waiting for the traffic light in the car, one man suddenly pop up and knock onto the mirror of our car, then my first thought was: quickly lock the car!! We didn't bother him, so he went to another car and did the same thing. That driver responded and it seems that he was trying to ask for help or direction, maybe because his car has broke down right behind us.....I was convicted by the Holy Spirit....because Jesus says what we did to the least of people is acctually doing it on Him....then I prayed: Dear Lord, please give me a bigger heart, a bigger heart to serve, to listen, to obey, to contain what you have ask me to do, thank God because in Him and with Him I'm a man of HOPE, BOLD, STRONG and SHARING.......Now I realise...that if I am to be without Jesus, I could be one of the most wanted.....Praise the Lord!!

Greatest honour!!

2008-05-11T02:25:00.001-07:00

Yea, came back from tonite church volunteers appreciation nite. This was my first time to attend this occation, but certainly it won't be my last. Well we started the event with a Praise & Worship session, I was reflecting on something through out the session. Yes, it is a nite to appreciate the volunteers after a year of hardwork and goodwork, but I always have this in mind: It is our Honor to serve the King of Kings and the Lord od Lords...it was my greatest honour and it is still my greatest honour now and it will be my greatest honor in the future...I wouldn't mind even if we doesn't get a night like this, it is simply because, just by the fact that God allowed us to serve Him, it is our honour to do so, it is well expressed in a song:

God of my forever
Forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul

God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honour will always be
To serve my Lord and King

Thank You Jesus, I love You and it is my Greatest honour to serve You.......

I Surrender....my All...

2008-05-11T02:24:00.002-07:00

Well, where should I start things off....Let's see....okay, here is it. Yesterday night, I have song leaded in praise and worship during the service. It was the first time I felt so helpless, so useless, or to expressed in a better way, so 'beh' I should say...haha.....well, yes, because everything seems was out of control, piano not working at first, which causes the pianist and synthesizer to swicth keyboard at times....everything seems just so out of control. But I remembered a lesson tought by our Youth Leader today, Surrender, All. I have to admit it that at times, I do know that I need to surrender, but not All, because I think that there are something that I can do on my own, so no need to ask God to help then....but I was so wrong and I told God that night:"God, I surrnder my All to You.." And guess what, the whole Praise & Worship was simply awesome, they were 'new' musician & vocalist, but praise the Lord they seem like they have been there for years....God is so awesome, and He wants us to surrender all to Him, not because He is a Autocrat but the fact He wants us to learn to depend on Him....To all the youth out there: When you felt helpless and everything seems out of control, surrender it to God, surrender your studies, relationship, work, everything including your Life, let Him guide you and lead you...all means everything, for He is the one who love us more than we love ourself....

The End of an Amazing Race! (Re-posted edition)

2008-05-11T02:24:00.001-07:00

Here is another meaningful blog entry, re-posted now...

1st of February 2007:
Haha....once you look at my title...you will know what I am going to talk about.....yes, The Amazing Race Asia has just ended on high.......although my favourite team doesn't come out on top at the end, but it is still a great show to watch........bitter sweet feelings......haha....what can I say, aren't life is more exciting when you doesn't know what will happen next?! It has been 13 weeks for this Amazing Race show but it will be 80 or even more years for our life......disapointment, achievement, all the conflics and unpredictably senario will just enrich my life, indeed, our lives!!!! But one thing myself have experienced is walking side by side with my best friend is really enjoyable and great, just want to thank every friends that have joined me in my race, no matter for long or short, i really appreciate it, well, that's what friends are for!!!!Lastly, me myself with a standing ovation for all the teams in the competition and all those who are still running in your very own AMAZING RACE......Cheers and smilez.......life just can't get any better......

~~thank you my Lord Jesus, having you with me in my race is just amazing......~~

Lost but Found!! (Re-posted edition)

2008-05-11T02:23:00.003-07:00

Hello everyone.... on the February 15 2007, something happened (It was posted in my old blog, so decided to re-post it here =P)...

15 February 2007:
my grandfather was LOST but FOUND in just one day......been to so many places to look for him.....now I know how do you feel when you really lose something important in your life.....I walk around like zombee....just keep walking and walking to find him......it is physically and mentally consuming.......it is kind of great when I got the news that he was Found.....great relief......thank you Jesus.......now I know how do you feel for the LOST!!!

Knowing the truth, Living out the truth!

2008-05-11T02:23:00.001-07:00

This qoute came into my mind just a few moment ago, it is so impactful....knowing the truth and living out the truth, it is a lesson that all of us have to learn, so that what we do will not collide with the truth. It is always better to walk your say, and say your walk, both are equally important....So, everyone, are you living it out yet?? Haha, chill dude...believe in what you think is right is still not enough, only by believing in the truth that will set your future path upright....

There is only One Life!

2008-05-11T02:22:00.001-07:00

Greetings everyone!! Aloha!! Haha......things have really gone great recently, although all kind of responsibilities and expectation were on my shoulder, but thank God I am still able to stand for He granted me the strength and wisdom to overcome every obstacles. Well, it is true isn't it, if you know you will only have one life, why then you want to go trough it in a sad manner?! Of course man, enjoy and utilize it till the max, that's the way to have a fruitfull life!! For there is only one life, think before you act; For there is only one life, do the do's and ignore the don'ts; For there is only one life, seek the truth for your life; For there is only one life, live out your dreams and your passion; For there is only one ife, surrender it to the God All Mighty.......Dear Lord:

One life I lay at Your altar
One love I with You
One word You know I will follow
One heart broken to You

Life Scale?!

2008-05-11T02:21:00.002-07:00

I was quite busy these days, having studies, church servings, cociricular responsibilities, and etc all in line, I was put into a situation where I really have to make my life scale clear enough in order for me to achieve what I am opt to achieve. Life is like this, I was all the while in this kind of situation, and thank God, I can say that at the moment I still manage to make my 'scale' clear, although at times I would screwed up everything and make myself in a middle of no where, especially now in Form 6....haha.....and I believe that by the strenght of God, I can continue to make my life scale clear.....and I encourage you, yes, everyone who are reading this, to make your 'Life Scale' clear in order to have a high efficiency, effective, and productive life...And at last, to achieve the ultimate goal of your life....

In Awe of God's work...

2008-05-11T02:21:00.001-07:00

It's amazing, unbelieveble, unexplainable.....Well a testimony to hard to keep it to myself...last Fri I had my first meeting together with all the Christian Fellowship's committee, with the English Department. Before this, God had imparted in me a vision and a passion to see my school to experience revival. and that God wants to do something great in the campuses. My vision is Campus for Christ and our theme for the year would be year of Awakening.....well well, this is where God's work take place, It's never me, but Jesus alone shall get all the glory and praise...when i share the vision and the theme, guess what, the Pres and the other committee looked into each other eyes and then turn to me and said: Did you read our mind or we read your mind?! Well well, now i know, it is God who read our mind!!! I was praying for this desprately, and guess what, God listened!!! Hallelujah, May all the Glory and Praise be Unto our Ever Great Father in Heaven!!!

Say what you Do, Do what you Say

2008-05-11T02:20:00.003-07:00

Say what you do, do what you say", a simple phrase but with a strong message, but it is so true for everyone of us to follow. When you say something, that means you believe in what you say, and it will bring out a life of what you said...and when you live in a particular lifestyle or you do something, that also means that you believe in the system that you are applying and you would say it out or in other words, promote it. Why? Because you believe it!!! "Live out the gospel and you share the gospel, because if you believe in something, you would not only live it out, you also say it out......" Good lesson, thank God!!!

For who You are

2008-05-11T02:20:00.001-07:00

Sometime in this week, I was reminded of one thing: Am I worshiping God for who He is? Or am I worshiping Him because of His anointing, His blessing or His gifts? Well, true true true, God was telling me that He wants us to worship Him for who He is, not because of what He has.....And this concept works in the opposite way too, God love us because of who we are instead of what we have or what we can do for Him!! Make it clear for you and me that God doesn't want us to love what He has but who He is!! For God is seeking those who have a pure Heart for Him, who worship Him for who He is.......

ReTirement?!

2008-05-11T02:19:00.002-07:00

2 days before today, the most important figure in my school have said farewell to the school; 2 weeks later, my mom will be retiring from her work after all this year of hardship.The retirement fest is aorund me, with teachers and leaders of honour retiring from their various position. it is time for the new cycle to take place. When the older respectful and proven-efficient generation step down, there is always doubt whether the new generation could fill in to the shoes of the great.....but time and time again it prove that the new generation not only can fill in to their shoes, but they can even bring their succes to a higher level. It was Moses who lead Israelites out of Egypt, but it was Joshua who lead them to the promise land of Canan.....It was King David who wants to build a temple for God, but it was King Soloman who eventualy built it......for the older generation, Happy Retirement......for the new generation, All the best!!!

Bad hAir DaY..

2008-05-11T02:19:00.001-07:00

Well well well, what can i say about this? It happened yesterday, before i left for church, decided to do something with my hair, so that it won't look so dull. Well, it turned out to be a disaster. After receiving some negative comment, decided to put a cap on, but it turned out to be another disaster. Soon after i put my cap on, it was at night i supposed to rap, well at least i call it rap, my hair were styled into 'Beckam'-like hair style, but yet it was another disastruos experience......Phew......well well, a bad hair day, but God turn it into His day, it meant to be a bad hair day for me, but who knows in His plan, He was using this bad hair day to let me know.....It's time to do something........with your HAIR!!!! Haha, praise the Lord!!!! Rejoyce in Him always!!!

Give me Malaysia or I die....

2008-05-11T02:18:00.001-07:00

It's clearer than the water and the most clear-sky you can ever imagine...well, recently i have been to a conference, a life transforming conference, it had certainly turn my world upside down. It was held few days ago and i won't forget what i have received from God in the camp. It was the first conference that i had attended which is so focus souly on the Revival of Malaysia....and imagine 1000 young people were crying and praying like never before, shouting out to God with all their strength, for the sake of His kingdom to come to Malaysia, for the sake of people in Malaysia. Well, it has certainly transformed me..........and when i heard about the testimony of Revival in Scotland, one prayer which cought my soul: "Give me Scotland or I die!", well.....then i cry out to the lord:" Give me Malaysia or I die!".......it is that desperate everyone gets in the hall, desperate for revival to swap across this nation. It is time, for the young generation to arise and go out there to Fight For Christ!!!! A Big Picture, Big Vision too hard to keep it to myself.....

Ijok + Batang Berjuntai mission

2008-05-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

Ijok and Batang Berjuntai, two places where the a4j mission team are going to set their foot on. Well, I'm also in....

17th August 2007
So the first night after packing everything from church, we started our journey around 6.30, yes, total traffic mayhem!! But still thank we still manage to reach there before 12!! Haha!!! But well, before going to the church, we instead went all the way down to Kuala Selangor to have our seafood dinner. Well, it turn out to our appetizer only, why? Because we ate a Vegetarian Seafood dinner!!! HAha!!! Still thank God we're able to try out some seafood =P. Then later on we've move to the church which was next to a tamil GT church!! Amazing isn't it?! Then, after we have settle down, it is time to get things started. We had our skit practice first, then later on last briefing on the Giant Monopoly Outdoor game entitled Ultimate Player, don't know what is that?! Wait till you experience it yourself...So late or should i say 'early' at 1am in the morning, after we've almost settle everything, then we feel the effect of having only vegetarian seafood.....as a result almost all of us went down to the nearest stall to grab some food.....maggie goreng + ayam + telur mata kerbau....that 's the complete set........after the 'Breakfast', we went back to the church and was thinking to continue on with our undone work...but tiredness overcame, we slept....

18th August 2007
So we sleep at 2.40++ in the morning, ending up with just 1.15 hour sleep. We woke up to finish the undone work and were able to do it on time!! Thank God for granting us strength!!! So as early as 6am++ we departed for the school, NONO, breakfast first..=P After the breakfast, preparation work kicked start at the school field, everything was seem going on well before we started.....but one or two small things we left out kind of make us in trouble a bit.....but everything was in control, if not in our control, surely it was always in His control!! So the game started, with such a great weather!!! Thank God for it!!! Everyone enjoyed!! Including us and i think He enjoyed it as well =).....So the game ended on high!!!

Later on in the afternoon, everyone got exhausted, slept to regain some energy for there's another great battle await us....At night, the night service started later than scheduled, but again i could say, He was going on with his plan instead of our's...After ice-breaker, praise and worship, testimony, skit and the sharing, this was the most important moment for this was the ultimate purpose of our mission...5+ souls were save at last!!!! All the hard time were worth this moment!!!! Thank God Thank God!!!!! His love was overflowing that night...really really, it is always our vision to build and save young souls!!! Left the church around ten, ate 'Dinner', then head all the way back to our base, Petaling Jaya.....

Hmm, it was indeed a fruitful and fun mission trip, but as i know deep in my heart that "Everyday is a mission trip".....thank God for everything for we can't do anything without Him!!! Praise the Lord fr the work He has done, not us!!!

Love you Mama!!

2008-05-11T02:16:00.003-07:00

Today when i reached home, and when i saw my mother, suddenly i felt so so so.....i just dont know how to describe it, suddenly wants all the things come into my mind, how many years she have been there to love me and comfort me whenever i come to her? How many tears she has dropped for me? How many times when i come back to her and ask her for money and she would give me without even questioning me? I just want to thank God really for giving me my mama, love you mama.....And of course, my heavenly Father, who was crusified and nailed on the cross simply because you love us, yes, all of us including you who is reading this......

How far can you go?

2008-05-11T02:16:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone, felt like dropping a word or two tonight, after all the things i have experience and after some analyse. Well, these days i am starting to look up to the life of all the great personal, all the great leaders. And i realised they have something in common, they were able to hold up to their job or you call "ministry" in a christianity term for such a long time. Sometimes i just wonder what drive them on in their life mininstry, as i am here, just 18 years of age, doubted if i could be like them. But thank God really, He had shown me that it is not possible for me to do it myself, that i could do it only WITH Him on my side. This has certainly remind me of something: Sometimes it is not about how good can you be at a moment, but how far can you go, or in other word, persevere.......i certainly wants to walk as far as i could in life with Jesus, wants to be like Moses, Abraham, Job, Elijah or present time like Billy Graham, David Livingstone......O Lord Jesus, just wish that i could be with you untill the end of my life.....

A cut on the hand, show how precious is a friend...

2008-05-11T02:15:00.001-07:00

Acctually wanted to write about this few days ago, but still thank God although it was delayed untill today =P. Well, something has make me felt so touched a few days ago. As i was opt to do my biology practical in the lab, well, i broke a test tube and it cut my palm as my friend told me that i pressed on the test tube when i was trying to save it from dropping. Well, end up we were delayed a few minutes and plus a handicaped member which was me. But i felt so touch when they say :"Nevermind, it is ok.." and some words like :"You don't do it..." which they ask someone else to do it....i felt really touched...and that remind me that despite all the bad things stole the limelight in the tabloids, i believe there are still good deeds in people....especially young people....thank God, lesson 3......

the Sun is always there....

2008-05-11T02:14:00.000-07:00

Well, this morning when i'm on my way to church, the sky was abit gloomy, the cloud eventually covered the sun. Then suddenly, this thought came into my mind: No matter it is morning or night, autum or winter....the sun is always there!!! And as if God is telling me that no matter when i'm in trouble or in sheer joy, no matter who i am, HE is always there!!! Just that sometimes we cannot see him but that doesn't mean he is not there......yea........lesson continue.....thank God!!!

Pure Blessing!!!

2008-05-11T02:12:00.000-07:00

A short one this time, just want to share my experience in my faith. Well in a usual morning just before i start my journey to school, which i think it should be last thursday when this thing happened, i said my usual prayer in the morning and walk down the stairs. And by the time i saw my wallet, i knew deep in my heart that there are hardly any sen left in it, well, it happen at times =P....But i told myself that morning: "Whatever, i have faith that i will still be able to have my breakfast.", then i walked into the kitchen to do something, then suddenly, my mom came in and she gave an amount of money which she claimed to be the scholarship which she had applied for my SPM result. GReat is our God!!!! So fast man!!! CAn u belive it?! It happened just in around 5-10 minutes time!!!! This is what i call PURE BLESSING!!!! Thank God!!!

Still in positive Growth!!

2008-05-11T02:11:00.000-07:00

Just felt like wants to share somemore.....i just realise something these days, sometimes i find myself in a very embarassing circumstances when i did something wrong, yes, guilty and all come in, but the thing is i would always ask myslef: "Apala, sudah leader still do such things"...well, sometimes i just cannot get over it and that kind of feelings would haunt me for a few days. As i am still trying to find a answer to the question, this poped up in my mind: Hello friend, you are still GROWING!!!! Well, stunned i could say, sometimes i might just rated myself too highly, and we do sometimes, think that we cannot do anything wrong in our life (especially if you're in a leadership position) and as if we have experience enough and have had attended enough conferens and talks. Well friend, from my personal experience, i truly admit that we must try our best to stay away from failures and mistakes and it is cetainly what i am trying very hard to do and we cannot one day say we're enough. But when things go the other way, lets have the courage to smile and tell others this statement: "Pls bare with me, i am still growing!!!".......aonther great lesson God has tought me.....

LiFe in Form 6!!

2008-05-11T02:10:00.000-07:00

Well, it is quite clear for me what course or things that i am going to do after form 5, and yes, after 6 months, now i find myself in a brand new journey of my life, form 6 life....Haha, had a slight taste on it when i witnessed m own siblings who had both gone through form 6, and now, i can feel how they feel and i can experience what they have experienced. For me, form 6 life can be sum up with a simple formulae(Pls bare with me, i juz cannot get rid of formulae =P): Strees + Six form life = Fantastic experience.....when i was chatting with my friends, we all agree that form 6 life is totally different form any that we have experienced so far, and so far, we found out that most of our lifestyle have changed, and we're starting to crack out what we call 'the nerd jokes'....haha....but i really have to thank God for putting me in this situation, so that i could continue to grow as a person...thank God, thank Jesus!!!

Finally.....1st One!!!

2008-05-11T02:06:00.000-07:00

Haiyo...really really really.....created this blog like ancient time ago....but now only the birth of the 1st blog entry..haha..well...what to do man...Just want to share my feelings, experiences, and information with ALL of you out there!!!Haha, i really mean all of you!!!! So hope that through my blog you would know who i am and hope that this blog can be a helpful resaurces for all of you!!!! Haiyo...really really really.....created this blog like ancient time ago....but now only the birth of the 1st blog entry..haha..well...what to do man...Just want to share my feelings, experiences, and information with ALL of you out there!!!Haha, i really mean all of you!!!! So hope that through my blog you would know who i am and hope that this blog can be a helpful resaurces for all of you!!!!